Howdy all.

Not sure why I always use Howdy now when I greet people but I do now. Must be some cowboy-ish Brokeback influence stuff.

Of course, I'm only bantering to distract myself from more serious, pressing matters. But that's another story.

Right now I shall banter some more. About school.


Raroa.

Wtfever the name means, I quite like the school. As for the question of GUYS...

Well there's this Korean one. And as you know, I've always wanted to learn Korean. His name is Gi.

There's another one, I think he's hitting on me. When I fell down he asked if I was alright. Before I could answer, Jannat went all 'OOOLALA~'.

Also there's this guy. When I was walking along with Nakisha and Mary Lou, he came across our path, turned to his friend, said, 'watch this.'

Then he turned to us (me, specifically), and went all 'Heeeeeeeeeyyy, ;D"

And I was like, 'Not working, dude.'

And then for Maths we had a class exchange student swap thing, so I went to Rm 2. HIS Class. He said, 'omg, you!' and proceeded to reiterate what happened. Everyone laughed. The teacher was like, 'Well Christie, Welcome to Raroa, I'm sorry you had to deal with Kaylen already...'

I think my awesome level just boosted.

OK, the thing is gnawing at my soul so I will now tell you what happened today.

Nay, I shall show you...

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The Unforgiven says:
4 am

The Unforgiven says:
not tired

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
feeling better? ):

The Unforgiven says:
no

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
wow. 4 am. Why not tired? \

The Unforgiven says:
insomnia

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
oh dear...

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
any other symtompms besides vomitting and insomnia?

The Unforgiven says:
the guy i like is not gay

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
how do you know? :/

The Unforgiven says:
i feel like killing myself

The Unforgiven says:
i asked himcasually

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
no no no. Tell me what happpeeeennnnneeeddddd.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
When? When did you meet him?

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
Hey. Nicholas...?

You have just sent a nudge.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
What did he say? What did you do? Are you still alive?

The Unforgiven says:
yes

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
Good God.

The Unforgiven says:
i talked to him onn msn

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
Ok...

The Unforgiven says:
we were joking around

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
and?

The Unforgiven says:
i asked him y doesn't he rape me ( i will explain when it is not a god-forsaken hour)

The Unforgiven says:
he said he was not gay

The Unforgiven says:
i wrote my will and my good bye letters already

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
oh wait Nicholas.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
Look, I really don't want to do this, but I have to go eat breakfast.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
You hang on there, don't go, I'll be back. Seriously. I'm a fast eater.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
back!

The Unforgiven says:
wow

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
Looooook, even if he's not gay, he didn't say he hates you.

The Unforgiven says:
i realli like him

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
And even if he does hate you - so what? You can't please anyone

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
Yes, I know the feeling.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
Rejection is powerful and painful.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
But Love is stronger than that.

The Unforgiven says:
i feel hollow

The Unforgiven says:
empty

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
And I'll give you some Love! Aw come on the world isn't ending.

The Unforgiven says:
i prefered it when i did not know

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
True. Some people hide from the truth because it fricking hurts.

The Unforgiven says:
i was happy with restlessness and anxiety

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
well... now you know.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
Nicholas, it's a sad thing that he wasn't gay, but hey - life is still here. There are plenty more fish in the ocean AND you have your whole life laid out for you.

The Unforgiven says:
life sux

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
Life is full of ups and downs - like a roller coaster. Might as well stick around for the whole ride if you have a free ticket from God.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
Life is only what you perceive it. YOU give life meaning.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
If you think your life sucks, so it will be. If you believe life is wonderful, so it will be.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
If you think life is a terminal sexually-transmitted disease, then so it shall be.

The Unforgiven says:
ill take STD

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
lol.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
Look at me. I've gotten a lot of kicks in my lifetime. You have no idea how much suckiness I've endured for eleven years. I'm not a abused child or anything, but...

The Unforgiven says:
my life is basiclly alienation

The Unforgiven says:
i nvr fit in perfectly

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
I've gotten rejected a fair amount of times, unfairly treated, scolded, yelled at, discriminated, kicked at, left to bleed...taken away from my home against my own will...

The Unforgiven says:
i was always not human in my eyes

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
And I still say my life rocks - It does.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
then what are you? A god? xD

The Unforgiven says:
while guys would go and play i lingered with a book

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
well, I prefer guys like that. Pfft. Sweaty ones stink >_< style="font-weight: bold;">


And the last word drew out longer than a sunset. He was either on the verge of crying, or he was doing a very good imitation.))

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Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
OK finnnnnnne. -walks off- -gives you a teddy bear- ((Look at me. Pretending I wasn't freaked out. ))


Mmkay? It's four in the morning. Go to sleep, Nich.


...And make sure you wake up tomorrow.


The Unforgiven says:
i don wanna sleep

The Unforgiven says:
i am crying myself to sleep while reading yaoi

The Unforgiven says:
yaoi is nice

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
Yeah, I think we both know that

The Unforgiven says:
helps me feed my once happy fantasies

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
-sigh-...

i see.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
But I for one think sleep will help you feed your body. It's bound to be aching tired by now.

The Unforgiven says:
no

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
...Is it me or does sympathy travel so weakly across MSN...?

I wish I was there.

The Unforgiven says:
i don feel tired at all

The Unforgiven says:
juz restless

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
okie-dokie then.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
-smashes computer in fustration-


SHIT.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
I have to go bathe. And change. And go out for a happy-celebration lunch.

The Unforgiven says:
what??

The Unforgiven says:
the

The Unforgiven says:
i thought u juz had breakfast?

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
Life, why must you kick me in the toe? argh.


Nicholas, I'll come online later. Who else could keep you in line?

Yeah breakfast but I have to drive and pick up people and yeah takes a few hours.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
Sorry ):

Look, I'm really hoping you don't do anything...rash, OK? Becaue you're my friend? You know what a friend is, right?

The Unforgiven says:
no one needs to keep me in line

The Unforgiven says:
i am gonna tell him i like him on Xmas

The Unforgiven says:
and if he hates me I am gonna jump

Chris; [ Why should I worry? (: ] says:
good boy. At least you're brave


See you.



Whether in heaven or hell or here.

-

And I will see him again, you can mark my fucking words. -shakes fist at the heavens-

I will.