Video showcases!

Two serious ones and then one funny one to top off the fact that IT IS SATURDAY, BABY!


Animash - The Voice



Hm this guy is amazing. Why haven't I subbed her before? -subs-




And last but if you think this is least you're an arse - TOPGEAR AWESOMENESS! -kowtows-




Embedding courtesy of Dintillion
Thanks, Dillen.

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You know what's my favorite scene in Mulan?

Well, my favorite SCENES.

When Mushu goes,

'Heya babyyyy. Hey, we neeed a ride.'

And then he gets squirted by Kahn.

And more awesomely -

when Mulan hugs the emperor, Yao is all,

'Is she allowed to do that?'

And everyone shrugs, smiling.

I don't know why but I just love that bit.

Also Nick is being an arse, but let's not go into that.

Qiyun dropping by later.








...I don't know why Nick doesn't like being called Nicholas.

I think his real name is better.

Why does he keep trying to be someone he's not?

...

Wait...I'm confused...





Words are very

Unnecessary

they can only do harm.
e n j o y t h e s i l e n c e ;

'It would be difficult for a stranger to believe that the dwarf and the centuar were actually good friends. She supposed this irritating bickering was how males of every species showed affection.'

- Artemis Fowl, The Lost Colony


I think about how many times L and Raito bicker irritatingly and suddenly their bickerings don't seem so irritating anymore.











((zomg, I abandoned my unspoken bolded-first line rule! :O

But then again, rules were made to be broken. ))

❧ Yellowcard, New Found Glory, Dashboard Confessional. Thanks, Estie.

Anywho!

Yeah, found out a coupla new bands via. Esther's blog.

ZOMG BORED.

BORED BORED BORED and feeling superficial and shit. So I'm going to write a lovely, hopefully-insightful blog entry to make myself feel GOOD AND BETTER AND YEAH. :)

oh my Lord; I love life. I love love love it.

Maybe if I say it enough times I will believe it.

No, that's what I used to think. So I said it to myself SO many times, and viola - now it has become a notion etched in my brain.

Forever.

-

You know, this blog, it's not really a blog, I don't like the word blog, I refer to it like a diary more like. No, I don't like the word diary. Or journal.

:/ So what do I call it? A deep dark mysterious place where all my deepest darkest secrets are stored?

Oh well, either way, I still love it, ღ

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Today right, I got kinda duped by Fraser being tricked into saying he likes me, lol. What's even more surprising is that I was kinda disappointed when it turned out to be a fraud.

Wait - how is that surprising?

Oh well, I guess I'm not the girl all the bad guys want.




Yet. ♥

-

I love music!

-

I love life.

-

It's like a bad movie,
she's looking groovy,
and I'm screaming someone shoot me,
as I fail miserably,


Trying to get the girl all the bad guys want. ♥




Off to watch TopGear episode my father downloaded illegally eating up almost one gig of our bandwidth, but who cares, it's TOPGEAR!

Life And Love And Why.

Life and love and why
Child, adult, then die
All of your hoping
And all of your searching
For what?
Ask me for what am I living
Or what gives me strength
That I'm willing to die for

Take away from me
This monstrosity
'Cause my futile thinking's
Not gonna solve nothing tonight
Ask me for what am I living
Or what gives me strength
That I'm willing to die for

Could it be this
Could this be bliss
Could it be all that
I ever had missed
Could it be true
Can life be new
And can I be used
Can I be used

Give me a reason
For life and for death
A reason for drowning
While I hold my breath
Something to laugh at
A reason to cry
With everyone hopeless
And hoping for something
To hope for
Yeah, with something to hope for

Could it be true
Can life be new
Could it be all that I am
Is in You
Could it be this
Could it be bliss
Can it be You
Can it be You


Could it be?

The unspoken, never-heard-before International Anthem the world needs to hear.


A day in LA
And millions of faces
Are looking for movement
Cause everything's stuck
And everything's frozen
And everyone's broken
And nobody moves
And everybody's scared
That the motion will never come

This is the incompletion
Stuck in a line

Love is the movement
Love is a revolution
This is redemption
We don't have to slow back down

The stars are alive
They dance to the music
Of the deepest emotion
And all of the world
Is singing in time
As the heavens are caving in
Mysterious ways
Why God gave His life
To put motion inside my soul

It's bigger than cold religion
It's bigger than life

We're starting now
We don't have to slow back down

This is a revolutioin

Get up, get up
Love is moving you now

Ah, I think I've just figured out why people commit suicide. (and I happen to know this because I always think about it when upset, zomg right?)

It is our own forgetfulness. It is our damnation.

When you have a wonderful night in bed, you wake up and often shove it to the back of your mind. When you orgasm the next day you wake up sober and wonder what was so good about it.

Yet when it occurs again all you can think about is it. Nothing else matters.

When happiness comes to visit, nothing else matters and you love life. When happiness leaves, everything matters and everything is material and if you lose the material things in life, you have nothing, so to speak.

Also, we forget happiness. We forget the crazy euphoria of it, when it passes, we wonder, 'what was so good about it anyway? It wasn't that great the last I remember of it.'

Oh?

And yet when joy visits your heart you think of nothing else and say that this is heaven.

The only thing that keeps me from shuffling off the mortal coil, to be honest, is the promise of a lifetime (oh lookie, Bible reference).

The promise of having more joy. I'm not so allured by eternal life, but I've never experienced God's love before and heck if it's better than mortal happiness I'm all for it.

I suppose that's what keeps me from committing suicide, I guess - the promise of happiness, of another tomorrow, of hope.

But for others...

Everyone, I should think, takes the jump because of some loss. Money, house, love, approval (but for the last one - well I guess you can't lose what you don't have, so I suppose it's not because of loss it's because of lack.)

And you lose something material, something you can know if it's there. But what about tomorrow's joy? Tomorrow is a mystery. Tomorrow you might win the lottery. That, you don't know, but you don't really care, since today is such a disaster, why wait for tomorrow? Why would the next twenty-four hours be better than today's twenty-four hours?

That is their thinking.

They lose something material, they think they've lost everything.

But how can you lose what you don't have? How can you lose the joys and blessings of tomorrow if you haven't even got it yet?

How can you lose the happiness that is just out of your reach? How will you get it if you don't keep holding on?

Hell, you don't need friends to keep trying. Hell, some of us commit suicide because in the first place, we believe we have no friends! All we need is our determination. It's like religion - everyone wants to sleep in late but when you believe something - when you are fighting for something - don't you think it's a lot harder to keep believing than sleeping in bed? It's never easy, to stay on the battlefield, and we never know whether we'll make it (and whether our end is cut short by someone else our by ourselves) - but here's a little something I like to tell you.

DON'T CRY BECAUSE IT'S OVER - BUT SMILE BECAUSE IT HAPPENED.

This is obviously talking about a relationship (another reason for jumping off the building, so take that advice), but I think it relates to ya'll too, suicidal people: DON'T CRY BECAUSE IT'S OVER, BUT SMILE BECAUSE YOU TRIED YOUR BEST.

Yep.

-


I dare you to move

I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor



I dare you to move

Like today never happened

Today never happened

Today never happened before


-


...That was very random.
What can I say? This post was an offspring of my depression mixed with boredom.

Wait - why am I explaining myself? It's not as if I need your approval...

Bohemia deserves a post in itself. ღ

In that little town of Bethlehem
We raise our glass- You bet your ass to-
La Vie Boheme

ALL
La Vie Boheme
La Vie Boheme
La Vie Boheme
La Vie Boheme

MARK
To days of inspiration,
Playing hookey, making something
Out of nothing, the need
To express-
To communicate,
To going against the grain,
Going insane,
Going mad

To loving tension, no pension
To more than one dimension,
To starving for attention,
Hating convention, hating pretension,
Not to mention of course,
Hating dear old mom and dad

To riding your bike
Midday past the three piece suits-
To fruits- To no absolutes-
To Absolut- To choice-
To the Village Voice-
To any passing fad

To being an us- For once-
Instead of a them-

ALL
La Vie Boheme
La Vie Boheme

MAUREEN
Is the equipment in a pyramid?

JOANNE
It is, Maureen

MAUREEN
The mixer dosn't have a case
Don't give me that face

MR. GREY
AHHEMM

MAUREEN
Hey Mister- She's my sister

MR. GREY
So that's five miso soup,
Four seaweed salad
Three soy burger dinner,
Two tofu dog platter
And one pasta with meatless balls

A BOY
Eww

COLLINS
It tastes the same

MIMI
If you close your eyes

MR. GREY
And thirteen orders of fries
Is that it here?

ALL
Wine and beer!

MIMI & ANGEL
To hand-crafted beers made in local breweries
To yoga, to yogurt, to rice and beans and cheese
To leather, to dildos, To curry Vindaloo
To Huevos Rancheros and Maya Angelou

MAUREEN & COLLINS
Emotion, devotion, to causing a commotion,
Creation, Vacation

MARK
Mucho masturbation

MAUREEN & COLLINS
Compassion, to fashion, to passion
When it's new

COLLINS
To Sontag

ANGEL
To Sondheim

FOUR PEOPLE
To anything taboo

COLLINS & ROGER
Ginsberg, Dylan, Cunningham and Cage

COLLINS
Lenny Bruce

ROGER
Langston Hughes

MAUREEN
To the stage!

PERSON #1
To Uta

PERSON #2
To Buddha

PERSON #3
Pablo Neruda, too

MARK & MIMI
Why Dorothy and Toto went over the rainbow
To blow off Auntie Em

ALL
La Vie Boheme

MAUREEN
And wipe the speakers off before you pack

JOANNE
Yes, Maureen

MAUREEN
Well- Hurry back

MR. GREY
Sisters?

MAUREEN
We're close

ANGEL, COLLINS, MAUREEN, MARK & MR GREY
Brothers!

MARK, ANGEL, MIMI & 3 OTHERS
Bisexuals, trisexuals, Homo Sapiens,
Carcinogens, hallucinogens, men,
Pee Wee Herman
German wine, turpentine, Gertrude Stein
Antonioni, Bertolucci, Kurosawa
Carmina Burana

ALL
To apathy, to entropy, to empathy, ecstasy
Vaclav Havel- The Sex Pistols, 8BC
To no shame- Never playing the fame game

COLLINS
To marijuana! :D

ALL
To sodomy
It's between God and me
To S & M

BENNY
Waiter...Waiter...Waiter

ALL
La Vie Boheme! ღ

Whoooooops, left the last post unfinished Dx

so I shall finish here lor.

Whoooooooooops, got to go to grandaunt's place soon.

Aiyah heck with it.


Umm, where to start? xD Well...I changed the blogskin, I guess. Yay me? Yay meee.

And went to Uncle Kim Hock's yesterday.

And before that, had fun at the Gala. I suddenly realized they were playing 1985 by Bowling For Soup on Singstar (the Playstation 2 game where you karoke), but before I had the chance they changed it to Guitar Hero, nuuuu. But I saw this guy on the Expert level, WAH DAMN GOOD MAN! xD

Anyway... Um... Stuff that happened at school. Hmm, let me think.

OH YES.

We had a Singstar practice in class yesterday, I went with India and sang Suddenly I See by KT Tunstall. India beat me, tho ):

AND THEN.

Matthew and Mitchell sang together, on one song I can't be bothered to remember. And every other subsequent song, they sang, sitting on a table together, holding imaginary microphones to their chest.

It was such a picturesque moment of shounen-ai that I wanted to bring out the paint and the canvas.

Occasionally, no scratch that, ALL the time they would play cards together, too. Just one lunchday (I think it was yesterday too), Mitchell asked me for some chips so I agreed and went over to his table coupla minutes later, where he was still playing with Matt. I talked to Mariru who was next to me, laying the bag of chips on the table (but under my hand), seeing if Mitchell would take the bait.

He did, stuffed some five crumbly bits in his mouth.

I feigned mock affront, snatched the packet away (but not before he snagged some chips), said, 'You nasty little punk!'

Matthew laughed, repeating my words. 'LOL, Mitchell!'

Occasionally I would find the chance to stroll by them, watching them do whatever they did together, and occasionally Matt would call out, 'Mitchell, would you marry meeee?!'

Or something like that. More often than not, they professed their undying love to each other, then collasped in a fit of giggles.

I always turned my head around when Matt said that.

OH AND ANOTHER THING -

damn, I forgot.

OH NO I DIDN'T!

Played cards yesterday. Well, not me. I was a spectator. Fraser (the playboy) had his gang come around to play. I was hoping they'd play the game they call 'Suckers', you get the card you want from another fellow...But you have to 'suck' the card from them. Suck on one side of the card, other does the same. If you pull it, like Emile did, then...You get a very pretty smooching scene. xD

I was fervently hoping that'd happen to Matthew and Mitchell, but alas, it didn't. D:

OWELL.

Anyway, I also just found a LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY song which I think is truly a celebration of the unorthodox. La Vie Boheme, everyone!










yayyyy.

Oh my gosh, so many things have happened which I didn't report, so much so that I don't know where to begin.

Oh well I'll just say what's significant.

tale as old as time,

song as old as rhyme.
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Unsaid - Bambi & The Great Prince [The Fray]

Fall Away - Brother Bear (Kenai) [The Fray]


-
beauty & the beast;...

100th post! And this hundredth post will be good.


You know why?

Because I've found another pairing. A real life pairing.

As if I wasn't already blessed enough with one piece of heaven, I have got another fantasy to indulge myself in.

Oh, but Qiyun is here, so I have to go. I WILL BE BACK.

LATER

yay! Got rid of Qiyun. Now. On to business.

Lovely business, this is. Lovely world too. Lovely lovely lovely.

Just so terribly lovely. So horribly lovely. So disgustingly lovely.

:)

-continues being weird-

You won't believe the miracles shounen-ai has blessed upon me. I drew Wataru and Kazuki today, smooching under the cherry blossom tree (oh the cliches), and it got round, me lugging that ridiculous red book around all the time. People wanted to see. They wanted to see bad.

And indeed, it was getting annoying. So much so that people started offering ludicrous incentives to see it. Most of them I gave in just because I wanted them to shaddup.

But...

Matthew offered this.

'Oei please la Chris! No? Ah... It's two guys kissing right? Please please please...Oh I KNOW. I'll kiss Mitchell if you let me see lor!'

My eyes opened impossibly wide at that. 'Really?'

'Yeah! Well, more or less.' Then he made a butterfly sign and Mitchell kissed one side of the palm. He smooched the other, demonstrating to me.

And I nearly fell over then and there.

My fangirl DNA spasmed, sending billions of happy endorphins to my brain. I had to restrain myself from foaming at the mouth then and there.

So when he did see it, he tried to like, run away with it. But I pinned him down. Just like I pinned down everyone else who tried to snatch it.

'You should join the tackle rugby team,' said Mitchell. 'You know, the one for girls. You'd be great.'

'Thanks but no thanks. I am absolutely clueless with rugby, as I am with every other sport. I'd probably only manage to massacre a few people.'


Unfortunately, he didn't keep his word and rebutted with 'Eh no I'm not gay'. Still!... Still, the demonstration kiss was enough to cheer me up all day.

And so I shall now rush forward with my new, spectacular pairing -

Matthew x Mitchell.

Oh dear. Is that a nosebleed I sense coming on?




I have more bad news, but since I have the DVDs of Beauty and the Beast & Brother Bear with me, I shall withhold it, and enjoy myself in the cares of love.

OK, now that all the fluffy happy shit in my previous entry is done and gone, let me get on to the real matter at hand.

I shall show you instead of tell you.

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Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. sent 11/16/2008 8:05 PM:
chris... i think there's something u *must* know about nicholas. and don't tell him i wanna talk to you about this.

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. sent 11/16/2008 8:05 PM:
send me an offline msg, k? (:

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
OK.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I AM HERE LOR

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
eh WTF.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
sorry 'bout that

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I shouldn't appeared online

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
LOL

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
OEI

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
TALK

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
HURRY

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
hahaha

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
erm...

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I NEED TO GO SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
JUST SPIT IT OUT

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
nicholas did webcame with a gay couple.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
LORD I THOUGHT WOMEN HESITATED

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
....

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
......

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
............

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
and the gay couple cumed after seeing him.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
...................

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
.....................................

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
If this is a joke well done, I'm laughing

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
i'm not.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
actually I'm not

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
zomg

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
o.o

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
why would i make such crap?

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
FUCK THAT PUNK I AM GOING TO BITCHSLAP HIM SO HARD

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
coz seriously i think he's gone too far

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
at least for his age

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
-massive anger attack-


Idiot.

Wtf go webcam with a stranger. StrangERS.

He's going to get himself into such trouble

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
fuck him

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
great, and now you expect me to keep my mouth shut about this

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
this is the worst timing ever

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
-groans- I am SO fustrated.

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
tell me about it.

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
i'm super pissed oso.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I AM NOT PISSED

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Well, OK I am

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I am pissed at him

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
which I am surprised since I thought being pissed shows signs of possessiveness.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Actually, fuck that, it means I cared about him

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
i still can tolerate if he has sex with a gal his age, but for him to allow himself for sexual gratification for RANDOM ppl...

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
tell me all you know about this

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
sorry ah, i cannot tolerate.

Chris; [ Why s
hould I worry? ] says:
everything.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Everythaaaaaaaang.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
NAOW.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I have to go bathe soon

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
every last bit of information

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
who

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
when

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
why

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
where

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
i just told u everything.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
what

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
i know.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
THATS ALL YOU KNOW?

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
how did you find out about this?!

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
he told me via msn.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
...

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
gal, i suggest u speak to him.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
He tells YOU but not ME.


What's wrong with this picture.

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
coz he doesn't see u online.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Well, I guessed he explicitly told you, 'DUN TELL CHRISTIE', right?

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
and probably becoz i'm male and i'm quite an open person.

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
no, he didn't even say that.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
...

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
OK.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Tell you what

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
here's my strategy

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I send him an email, 'Hey Nicholas what's up what did you do recently'

And if he doesn't reply, I know why.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Remember? He's giving me silent treatment, for 2 - 3 weeks

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
And if he DOESN'T REPLY..

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
'HEY NICHOLAS WTF YOU WEBCAMED WITH RANDOM PEOPLE OH LORD YOUR MOTHER IS GOING TO KILL YOU IF SHE FINDS OUT


BUT I WILL KILL YOU HARDER.'

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
i mean, i'm not complaining about your sec 1 seniors having sex wif their boyfriends... but for nicholas' case, i don't think i can tolerate lor

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Excuse me

/I/ should be the one 'not tolerating'

No offense

BUT EUREHJGHKRSHJES

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
-calms down-

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
RIGHT.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I AM GOING TO SO THRASH THAT PUNK HARD

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I gtg now

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
relax gal.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
next time you talk to him

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
do it calm.

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
PLEASE.

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
if u violent, he's gonna get worse.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I will

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Hell, I am very calm when I want to be

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
give him a chance to reason first, k?

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I have people insulting me left right boys bullying me in school all the time. I hardly ever blow my top.

But now...It's taking all my self control

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
OK I will

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
next time you talk to him

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
squeeze ALL information

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
*gently*.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
GTG NOW MOMS KILLING ME

Ds1110 :: 3 parties down. 1 more to go. says:
thanks gal. see ya. take care.

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
thanks for the information, I owe you big bucks


-
Yes hor, seriously owe him big bucks.

I hope this doesn't all spiral downwards -



Where did I go wrong?
I lost a friend, somewhere along in the bitterness

and

I would've stayed up with you all night.

Had I known how to save a life.

Here is a thing Will told Ossie. "All shadows are the same and that's the Secret of Life." The shadow a sparrow makes is no different from a bear's. A hundred-foot oak and a tangle of pokeweed each shade the earth, one same as the other. Everyone who crosses the face of the swamp casts a shadow and all shadows are made of the same stuff. The swamp doesn't care whose shadow is whose. The swamp doesn't care one whit. The swamp has bigger things on its mind. This is the Secret of Life, but don't tell anyone.

- The Tale of the Swamp Rat by Carter Crocker, chapter 19.

-

zomg Uncle and Aunt come to stay damn fun le!

Yesterday go fishing - sorry crabbing - and today we ate the crabs. Caught quite a few smallish ones but aiya.

Anyway the crabbing super fun lor. Got a bunch of Chinese -3 of them-, keep coming around, saying stuff like 'wa big catch today!', but me being my paranoid self thought they were carrying a gun about and going to shoot us and I'd run away and kick them in the -

*ahem*.


Didn't eat many.

Today Uncle Jimmy saw my dragon drawing and gave me a tutorial. Zomg he treats me as if I am an AMATEUR. Dragon like a cartoon, mine like realistic. Hello you see my style you teach me MY STYLE not cartoon hor.

Le bleh.

OWELL.

Going to have more fun now.



Oh when I lock back now
That was seemes to last forever
And if I had the choice
Ya - I'd always wanna be there
Those were the best days of my life

Back in Summer of '69

Oei, Nicholas.

I'm just waiting for someone to sing this to me :)

Apparently I didn't consider the existence of ligers when I thought that.

-is reading Mind Games, the awesome, the fluffy, the sombre, the legend-

-doesn't know why she bothered hyperlinking it, since nobody who reads this will read that, of all things-

And yet, still. But I think I know why,:

"“What kind of a philistine puts carrot in a muffin?” Raito looked up in surprise at L’s sudden outburst. The lanky detective was staring at a bitten muffin with something almost approaching contempt. He seemed affronted by its very existence, clutched there between his spidery fingers.

“Because they’re trying to boost its sagging health quota,” replied Raito, bemused. “Most people are glad to see the word ‘carrot’ on a muffin because it makes them feel less guilty about eating the sugary concoction.”

“Ah, but you see, that’s not a problem for me,” explained L, examining the muffin as if it were some kind of new and potentially dangerous animal. “When I eat a muffin, I know what kind of dietary trouble I’m getting into. I don’t want to see pseudo-healthy ingredients like carrot in my food. If I wanted health food, I wouldn’t have eaten anything at all. I’d have made a few phone calls.”

“Why?”

“Because I would be delirious and possibly near death.”"

Zira - Time Is Running Out [Papa Roach]

adjkfdjslj those Offspring songs are shit!

Well at least by my standards. So scrap the whole Offspring craze! gah.

So Far Away (Staind) - Balto OR Simba

Outside (Staind) - Zira/Kovu (ugh any more and I will have to start shipping them)

For You (Staind) Bambi & The Great Prince (follow up of my 'Perfect' vid)

Fade (Staind) Nuka (LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS ONE)

The Corner (Staind) Simba ( actually this one's pretty abstract)

Run Away (Staind) Simba

Please (Staind) Bambi



Mudshovel (Staind, omg Staind spree? About time) - Simba to Scar

Falling Down (Staind again!) - Simba to Scar

How About You - (Staindddd, zomgs love) - Balto to Steele


OHWELL.

BACK TO MY BORING LIFE.

Actually, no.

No, I want to talk about something good and interesting. Something about me; this is my blog after all.

I settle down in NZ pretty OK, I guess. Quite OK. Quite good. Parents sometimes argue, Dad bought 'Investing for Dummies', and...Uh, school's great, whether's fine (except for the fact that the ozone layer is nearly gone and that there is a high chance of skin cancer and that my mom's side of the family has a history of cancer and on top of that my dad's side has diabetes), so I suppose I should be fine. Fine fine fine.

What's missing?

Oh, I don't know, a close friend that I can pour my secrets out to and not be judged, a portal to God, a shoulder to cry on...

Oops. Just realized what I was missing.

Oh well, back to superficial happy thoughts again!

Well, it's true. Sometimes when this tough nut arises, the best way to crack it is have a good laugh. Eat ice cream, ride a roller coaster, eat loads of chips.

For me, my solution is Top Gear. Phwoar!

I think I should either end/start with a song everytime. It makes the blog feel...

I don't know, more musical?


-

I'm not very good at just paying attention
I'm not very good at remembering things that you say
I'm not very good at persuing redemption
I'm not very good at concealing the hand that I play

It's the way I am, you'll never change
The way I am, or re-arrange
The way I am, just let me be
The way I am, it's the way I am

I'm not really sure of the coming attractions
I'm not really sure of the illusions we read on the wall
I'm not really sure of the preaching we practice
I'm not really sure if we notice it before we fall

It's the way I am, you'll never change
The way I am, or re-arrange
The way I am, just let me be
The way I am, it's the way I am

I'm not very good at just paying attention
I'm not very good at remembering things
I'm not very good at pursuing redemption
I'm not very good at concealing the hand that I play

When I'm trying so hard just to beat you
I'm not really good at controlling my fate
I'm not really good at controlling my anger
I'm not really good at subduing my hate
I'm not really good (x3)

It's the way I am, you'll never change
The way I am, or re-arrange
The way I am, just let me be
The way I am, it's the way I am

-


P/S, macs suck.

In my defense?

Once you said you'd stick to it 'til the end
I guess you lied, they call it suicide
Now you're gone, what was so wrong
that you couldn't find a way to carry on?

Second guess
Did I do my best?
There was a friend I had...

Johnny was a weirdo
So what did you expect?
I ain't no fucking hero
I'm just trying to survive myself

I should have known you went through it alone
I wonder why did you even try?
You could have come to me
I would have helped you see
You could have found a way to carry on

Second guess
Did I do my best?
There was a friend I had...

Johnny was a weirdo
So what did you expect?
I ain't no fucking hero
I'm just trying to survive myself

Johnny's strange behavior
was a tip-off, they say
But I ain't no fucking savior
I'm just living day by day

Little things, little lives
Hanging 'til the end
I say it don't really mean nothing
Telling truth, telling lies
I used to have a friend
I say it don't really mean nothing
And I can't let this feeling go
Let this feeling go
Let this feeling go
Let this, let it go

Once you said you'd stick to it 'til the end
I guess you lied, they call it suicide
Now you're gone, what was so wrong
that you couldn't find a way to carry on?

Second guess
Did I do my best?
There was a friend I had...

Johnny was a weirdo
So what did you expect?
I ain't no fucking hero
I'm just trying to survive myself

Johnny's strange behavior
was a tip-off, they say
But I ain't no fucking savior
I'm just living day by day

-

What Happened to You?

-

I don't know what's with today, but the songs just seem to call out to me...And I hope they never progress to that level.

-



OK time to stop being emo. He'll survive no doubt about it and anyway I won't let him jump. Never. Neverrrrrr.

But in good news, I finished my belated vid! Yay. Ate up a lot of my bandwidth. Not so yay.

Found more awesome songs by The Offspring. Yay.

Sick. Not yay.

Took two days off school. Yay.

Going back to school. Not-so-Yay.

Got this month's 10 gig bandwidth. Yay.



Not knowing what to do with my seemingly useless life. Not yay.

-

Ho ho ho.

It would seem like I have some video ideas again!

Zira - Scars (Papa Roach)

Outlanders - Kill The President (The Offspring)

Emo-ish Animash - It'll be a Long Time (The Offspring)

Smash - Balto (The Offspring)

gah exceeded my bandwidth by about 50 Mb. Oh noes.

-



-

Smash, smash, smash.



(Balto?)

-

And now I'd like to end with my meaning of life.

Why haven't I learned?

I told Ds.

I told Jeelian.

I told her.

I almost told Risa, for crying out loud...

These are going to be a long 3 weeks.




Shall I explain?

He read the conversation which I so stupidly handed him.

And fuck it all, he read it, he read it.

I can't believe this.

I just never learn, do I?

For once I don't feel like blaming human nature. Or blaming myself, for that matter.

All I can say is,

'I'm sorry...

I did the best I could.'


Will you listen to my story
It’ll just be a minute
How can I explain
Whatever happened here never meant to hurt you
How can I cause you so much pain
When I say I’m sorry
Will you believe me
Listen to my story
Say you won’t leave me
When I say I’m sorry

Hear, hear.

In the years when Christ was alive the various religious factions were the law of the land and controlled the population through the Old Testament from my knowledge of history. In those years the only way to change the current law was to bring change to religious beliefs.

Christ ran a great campaign for religious change by embracing the outcasts of his society. Those who noone would be caught associating with, those who are still maligned to this day. The prostitutes, those with incurable diseases like leprosey (which is what I would liken to today's AIDS epidemic), the poor, the sick, the disabled; all those that religious society threw away, scorned, killed and spat upon.

He gave them hope that change would come. That society would change. The world they knew would change for the better. That was the beginning of the Christianity movement; a single fight against discrimination.

Today I look around and wonder what has become of the original ideals of the church. It seems that the quest for religious political control has outweighed the original intent of Christianity. Love.

The book of Leviticus was written before the Christianity movement. The Old Testament was written before the Christianity movement. Before his death Christ said that the Old Testament was no longer viable, that blood sacrifices were no longer needed and that his blood would wipe away all previous sins. The previous laws were not viable and were discriminitory.

For all the protestations that the New Testament bans GBLTs it does no such thing. Most will quote you two lines from Romans but all should read the entire gospel. It says those two lines belonged to the old law. When Christ died that old law died with him and when he was resurected the New Law began. The new law is not about the carnal body but the spirit. It is about how you live your life spiritually. Paul spent the majority of Romans asking who are you to judge Gods servant, your brother.

What is said over and over in the New Testament, as also in Romans, is that if you LOVE HONESTLY you have fulfilled the new law. If you live a spiritual life by helping your neighbour; not tearing him down; not throwing stumbling blocks in his path; not judging him and keep following the 10 commandments you have fullflilled the law. Paul then says in Romans to mark those who cause divisions and avoid them.

When I read what is around those two lines I notice the usage of a : at Romans 1:20 Then Romans 1:22-23 says "Professing themselves to be wise, they became fools, And changed the glory of the uncorruptible God into an image made like to corruptible man, and to birds, and fourfooted beasts, and creeping things" Sounds like what happened with all those Proposition 8 amendments; corrupting ideas to mold folks to their way of thinking.

It's my belief that Paul was talking about how some rightous folks began corrupting the gospel of Christ. And then Chapter 2 starts off as "Therefore thou art inexcusable, O man, whosoever thou art that judgest: for wherein thou judgest another, thou condemnest thyself; for thou that judgest doest the same things." I absolutley love Romans 12:9 that says Let love be without hypocrisy (pretense of some public approved attitude). And the entire Chapter 13 is a winner. Romans turns out to be about being honest about who you love, our personal relationship with God and living a spiritual life because none of us are being turned away unless you simply don't believe he exists. (That's up for an entirely different discussion folks.)

My grandfather Joseph was a preacher, and a carpenter. Wonder how he would feel about me saying this about religion but this is essentially why I am Agnostic. Religion seems to pick and choose passages in any gospel or piece of writing that suits their agenda. If you read the entire book then you see what they left out and what the author was really trying to tell you, so you can make up your own mind. All I learned from the New Testament is that honest love fulfills the law of Christ. That's it. There is nothing else to pick apart. That is the one thing that is repeated over and over that no one seems to get.

Honest love and living your life spiritually by lifting up all, especially those you cannot agree with. I don't hate. I get very disappointed but I cannot hate.

-

Come on, Nick, please don't die..

The world's pretty screwed.

Discrimination everywhere; recently watched a show called Idiocracy. In 500 years the world kind of devolved, the word 'fag' was used as an insult all the time.

Fag means gay.

Well, the next time I'm called a fag, I'll take that as a compliment.

Honestly.

I take comfort in the fact that I'm not alone.

I take comfort, where there seems to be none.





See, now you know why I hate to go to church.

-

Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
be an angel just once, k?
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
pui
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I am a bloody angel
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
after church, nobody cares what happens
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
it is those stupid homophobics that are the devils
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
they think they're the angels, 'trying to make the wrold recognize their wrong',
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
and they proclaim to be saviors 'in a twisted world where wrong is right,'
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
honestly
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
what is wrong with loving another human being
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
who cares what gender you are, what gender THEY are
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
it doesn't frickin matter
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
wow. i thought u're a rightful christian
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
you thought
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
you thought; pui!
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I don't believe SOME aspects of the Bible
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
some I do
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Sorry about this, but I need to rant
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
feel free to go make yourself some coffee and ignore me
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
but I'd appreciate it if you'd listen
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I know prejudice is one of my worst enemies
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
but I have a bad attribute:
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
everytime I hear about a Christian, I go all jittery
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I can't bear to listen to worship songs
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I imagine every single Christian to be some gay-hating rage-filled man with a gun, looking all saintly when he goes on a fag-murdering rampage
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
it's a horrifying image
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
that's why I detest church
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I meet someone I like there, like a cool kid
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
and suddenly I see the image of them filled with disgust because of the stuff I see & like (eg.yaoi), and my heart drops into my guts with a splat
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
i just can't take it
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
ERUGUH.
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
put it this way
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
imperfect people goes to church
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
yeah? -shuts up and listens for once-
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
your spiritual healing helps you for a bit, but the rest of it is up to u
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
define spiritual healing? xD
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
true
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
the rest of it is up to me
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
for the past 2/3 years, I've had a rather personal battle with God
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
most of the time I just try to shove him into the back of my mind; not think about him
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
but then I realize sooner or later I have to decide: Am I a Christian or not?
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
so I was about to say no when I read about some certain people; who believe in one part of the Bible but not another. I decided to follow them.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Everytime the Bible bashes homosexuality, I just take a pen and cross that part out
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
yes, it's entirely up to me, I know
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
sometimes lying awake in bed I tell myself I don't believe in God
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
it' still so hard to decide whether I do or not
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
testaments age with time. they are in line with how people of their time should behave.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
but I look at the atheists and they seem like a bunch of arrogant arsewipes to me, so yeah.
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
it's still a guide for some in modern times.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
not true! I heard something about Julius Ceasar (or wtfever his name is), he was 'every woman's man and every man's woman,'

in the old ages at some certain period in time, homosexuality was treated like gold. Gay people like Gods.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Now, I would've given up internet to live in those ages.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Well, apparently the Bible times were delusioned.
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
then i ask u
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I tell you, I want to see a homophobic. I want to ask them, straight to their face: What's wrong with loving another human being
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
r u straight?
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
lol!


Good question
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
....
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
the very important thing one of my true friends should know,
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
is that I DON'T KNOW
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I used to have this band-mate Jamie. She was really cool lol. But only as a sister
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
lesbian? Eh, dunno. I believe boys too hawt to be thrown away,
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
but I guess it's my body's choice not my head
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I have no idea
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
hopefully not. Not because of prejudice
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
but hopefully not. I prefer boys ^^
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
think ya goin thru puberty... u may choose to deny but u can be confused about ur status during this time.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I'll give you progress reports when I turn 18, LOL
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
That's very philosophical x3
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
serious.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Yes, I know you are
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I'm dead serious here too. My expression does not in any way resemble x3.
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
i know what you mean.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I just don't know. Plus my bladder is full, head kinda muddled.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
If I am lesbian, it means difficult times ahead
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Heaven knows that I have a tough enough time without being homosexual myself. But that's just selfish, I KNOW, I KNOW.
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
don't think so much, k?
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
don't think so much? I wish. I'm a wallflower; I have eons to think.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
It's just...
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
hey

I'm going to tell you another secret now
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
one that I probably haven't told you before
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
uh huh
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
You know that guy. The Unforgiven fellow, talked with him, three of us just now
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
yup
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
um.

He's not straight.


Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
So yes.

Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
you told me before.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Oh.
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
he told me personally
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Sorry. My memory is all screwy
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
oh he did?
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
he only talked to you, like, today.
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
yesh.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
so you two had a chat when I was gone, eh?
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
innndeed.

He trusts strangers probably because he can't meet them face to face
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I share the same sentinent
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
which is probably why he told me he was gay only AFTER I left
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
he didn't know who was i at first
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
anyway
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
he thinks i was female
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
LOL
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
too late
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
told him who you were
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
sorry
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
somehow or another he knew my name
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
OH?!
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
then he got super quiet
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
SEE LAH U
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
LOL
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
SO SORRY
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
knn.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
anyway I will tell him that I talk to you about all sorts of stuff
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
and that you are also a very teenager-ish person
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
x3
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Like this is a fine example
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
anyway
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
ANYWAY
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
back to topic
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
So Nicholas
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
one night he was crying over heartache, apparently his crush isn't gay etcetc, I didn't press on the matter
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
so I was being my usual self, lending my shoulder to cry on, so on so forth
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
offering advice
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
i was kinda pushing it on the advice
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
talking too much
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
not listening
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
so he sent me a voice clip
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
and I honest had never heard him sound so...Unhappy.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
So...Lord, he was choking back tears
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
It kind of sobered me up
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
even though I wasn't drunk
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
it really. Spooked. Me.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I just...It's just...


See, this is why the world is so screwed up
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
how can people make others so upset like this, so SUICIDAL like this, and say they're doing 'the right thing'?!
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
i'm not christian, though i have a religion. and i also believe there are things mentioned in them which, i cannot obey or follow, because of the current society
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Oh

That's a comforting thing to say...
Thanks.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
current soceity is screwed up. People ask if true love exists, I reply, 'If the world doesn't get more fucked, then yes.'
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Still, I think I chose to believe in God because...God is like a security blanket
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
it's a comforting notion
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
either way

you are right

I should stop thinking


which is just as well since I should go to bed now
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
thanks for not, uh, going off to make a cup of coffee and ignoring me. Thanks.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Seeya.

-

Thank you. From the bottom of my heart.

The Lion King 2 - You're Gonna Go Far, Kid [Zira to Kovu]

Show me how to lie
You're getting better all the time
And turning all against the one
Is an art that's hard to teach
Another clever word
Sets off an unsuspecting herd
And as you get back into line
A mob jumps to their feet

Now dance, *crash* dance
Man, he never had a chance
And no one even knew
It was really only you

And now you steal away
Take him out today
Nice work you did
You're gonna go far, kid

With a thousand lies
And a good disguise
Hit 'em right between the eyes
Hit 'em right between the eyes
When you walk away
Nothing more to say
See the lightning in your eyes
See 'em running for their lives

Slowly out of line
And drifting closer in your sights
So play it out I'm wide awake
It's a scene about me
There's something in your way
And now someone is gonna pay
And if you can't get what you want
Well it's all because of me

Now dance, *crash* dance
Man, I never had a chance
And no one even knew
It was really only you

And now you'll lead the way
Show the light of day
Nice work you did
You're gonna go far, kid
Trust, deceived!

With a thousand lies
And a good disguise
Hit 'em right between the eyes
Hit 'em right between the eyes
When you walk away
Nothing more to say
See the lightning in your eyes
See 'em running for their lives

Now dance, *crash* dance
He never had a chance
And no one even knew
It was really only you

So dance, *crash* dance
I never had a chance
It was really only you

With a thousand lies
And a good disguise
Hit 'em right between the eyes
Hit 'em right between the eyes
When you walk away
Nothing more to say
See the lightning in your eyes
See 'em running for their lives

Clever alibis
Lord of the flies
Hit 'em right between the eyes
Hit 'em right between the eyes
When you walk away
Nothing more to say
See the lightning in your eyes
See 'em running for their lives.



YEAH.


Sorry for no good posts recently. But some events are so traumatic I don't want to remember them.


How weird.

In this twisted world,

where diversity is greeted into the open arms of discrimination,

sometimes you just have to grab happiness from the ankles and not let go.

sometimes you just need a good healthy dollop of yaoi, taken in large servings daily.

with sugar and icing.

current fandom: L x Raito

I'm in love with Bowling for Soup.

'Debbie just hit the wall
She never had it all
One Prozac a day
Husband's a CPA
Her dreams went out the door
When she turned 24.
Only been with one man
What happened to her plan?

She was gonna be an actress
She was gonna be a star
She was gonna shake her ass(ass)
On the hood of White Snake's car
Her yellow SUV is now the enemy
Looks at her average life
And nothing, has been...
all right since

Bruce Springsteen, Madonna
Way before Nirvana
There was U2 and Blondie
And music still on MTV
Her two kids in high school
They tell her that she's uncool
Cuz she's still preoccupied
With 19, 19, 1985'

They rock.

-

I pissed Jackson off today.

I knew it would happen sooner or later, but I'm still gutted that it happened.

I feel like apologizing.

Once upon a time, this thought would've never occurred to me.

Now, it seems like something I want to do.

In the words of Artemis Fowl,

Have I changed utterly?


...Have I changed for good...?

Finally!

Found it. Been looking for it for SO long.

Must go listen to it after November 11.

yah.

November 11 is when I get the other 10 gigabytes. I used them all up.

Whoooooooooooooooooops.

Anywayz.

LOVE RAROA!