The world's pretty screwed.

Discrimination everywhere; recently watched a show called Idiocracy. In 500 years the world kind of devolved, the word 'fag' was used as an insult all the time.

Fag means gay.

Well, the next time I'm called a fag, I'll take that as a compliment.

Honestly.

I take comfort in the fact that I'm not alone.

I take comfort, where there seems to be none.





See, now you know why I hate to go to church.

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Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
be an angel just once, k?
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
pui
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I am a bloody angel
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
after church, nobody cares what happens
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:

Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
it is those stupid homophobics that are the devils
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
they think they're the angels, 'trying to make the wrold recognize their wrong',
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
and they proclaim to be saviors 'in a twisted world where wrong is right,'
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
honestly
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
what is wrong with loving another human being
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
who cares what gender you are, what gender THEY are
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
it doesn't frickin matter
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
wow. i thought u're a rightful christian
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
you thought
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
you thought; pui!
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I don't believe SOME aspects of the Bible
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
some I do
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Sorry about this, but I need to rant
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
feel free to go make yourself some coffee and ignore me
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
but I'd appreciate it if you'd listen
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I know prejudice is one of my worst enemies
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
but I have a bad attribute:
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
everytime I hear about a Christian, I go all jittery
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I can't bear to listen to worship songs
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I imagine every single Christian to be some gay-hating rage-filled man with a gun, looking all saintly when he goes on a fag-murdering rampage
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
it's a horrifying image
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
that's why I detest church
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I meet someone I like there, like a cool kid
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
and suddenly I see the image of them filled with disgust because of the stuff I see & like (eg.yaoi), and my heart drops into my guts with a splat
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
i just can't take it
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
ERUGUH.
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
put it this way
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
imperfect people goes to church
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
yeah? -shuts up and listens for once-
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
your spiritual healing helps you for a bit, but the rest of it is up to u
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
define spiritual healing? xD
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
true
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
the rest of it is up to me
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
for the past 2/3 years, I've had a rather personal battle with God
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
most of the time I just try to shove him into the back of my mind; not think about him
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
but then I realize sooner or later I have to decide: Am I a Christian or not?
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
so I was about to say no when I read about some certain people; who believe in one part of the Bible but not another. I decided to follow them.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Everytime the Bible bashes homosexuality, I just take a pen and cross that part out
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
yes, it's entirely up to me, I know
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
sometimes lying awake in bed I tell myself I don't believe in God
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
it' still so hard to decide whether I do or not
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
testaments age with time. they are in line with how people of their time should behave.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
but I look at the atheists and they seem like a bunch of arrogant arsewipes to me, so yeah.
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
it's still a guide for some in modern times.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
not true! I heard something about Julius Ceasar (or wtfever his name is), he was 'every woman's man and every man's woman,'

in the old ages at some certain period in time, homosexuality was treated like gold. Gay people like Gods.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Now, I would've given up internet to live in those ages.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Well, apparently the Bible times were delusioned.
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
then i ask u
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I tell you, I want to see a homophobic. I want to ask them, straight to their face: What's wrong with loving another human being
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
r u straight?
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
lol!


Good question
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
....
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
the very important thing one of my true friends should know,
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
is that I DON'T KNOW
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I used to have this band-mate Jamie. She was really cool lol. But only as a sister
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
lesbian? Eh, dunno. I believe boys too hawt to be thrown away,
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
but I guess it's my body's choice not my head
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I have no idea
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
hopefully not. Not because of prejudice
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
but hopefully not. I prefer boys ^^
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
think ya goin thru puberty... u may choose to deny but u can be confused about ur status during this time.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I'll give you progress reports when I turn 18, LOL
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
That's very philosophical x3
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
serious.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Yes, I know you are
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I'm dead serious here too. My expression does not in any way resemble x3.
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
i know what you mean.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I just don't know. Plus my bladder is full, head kinda muddled.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
If I am lesbian, it means difficult times ahead
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Heaven knows that I have a tough enough time without being homosexual myself. But that's just selfish, I KNOW, I KNOW.
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
don't think so much, k?
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
don't think so much? I wish. I'm a wallflower; I have eons to think.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
It's just...
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
hey

I'm going to tell you another secret now
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
one that I probably haven't told you before
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
uh huh
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
You know that guy. The Unforgiven fellow, talked with him, three of us just now
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
yup
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
um.

He's not straight.


Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
So yes.

Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
you told me before.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Oh.
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
he told me personally
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Sorry. My memory is all screwy
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
oh he did?
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
he only talked to you, like, today.
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
yesh.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
so you two had a chat when I was gone, eh?
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
innndeed.

He trusts strangers probably because he can't meet them face to face
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I share the same sentinent
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
which is probably why he told me he was gay only AFTER I left
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
he didn't know who was i at first
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
anyway
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
he thinks i was female
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
LOL
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
too late
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
told him who you were
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
sorry
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
somehow or another he knew my name
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
OH?!
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
then he got super quiet
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
SEE LAH U
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
LOL
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
SO SORRY
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
knn.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
anyway I will tell him that I talk to you about all sorts of stuff
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
and that you are also a very teenager-ish person
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
x3
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Like this is a fine example
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
anyway
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
ANYWAY
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
back to topic
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
So Nicholas
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
one night he was crying over heartache, apparently his crush isn't gay etcetc, I didn't press on the matter
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
so I was being my usual self, lending my shoulder to cry on, so on so forth
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
offering advice
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
i was kinda pushing it on the advice
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
talking too much
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
not listening
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
so he sent me a voice clip
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
and I honest had never heard him sound so...Unhappy.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
So...Lord, he was choking back tears
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
It kind of sobered me up
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
even though I wasn't drunk
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
it really. Spooked. Me.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
I just...It's just...


See, this is why the world is so screwed up
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
how can people make others so upset like this, so SUICIDAL like this, and say they're doing 'the right thing'?!
Ds1110 :: when was the last time you've seen an empty train station? says:
i'm not christian, though i have a religion. and i also believe there are things mentioned in them which, i cannot obey or follow, because of the current society
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Oh

That's a comforting thing to say...
Thanks.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
current soceity is screwed up. People ask if true love exists, I reply, 'If the world doesn't get more fucked, then yes.'
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Still, I think I chose to believe in God because...God is like a security blanket
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
it's a comforting notion
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
either way

you are right

I should stop thinking


which is just as well since I should go to bed now
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
thanks for not, uh, going off to make a cup of coffee and ignoring me. Thanks.
Chris; [ Why should I worry? ] says:
Seeya.

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Thank you. From the bottom of my heart.