let's have some fun this beat is sick





sorry for the lack-of-postage. Kinda busy...well no, I lie. Not busy. Just having a lack of interesting things to report. Wait, no, that's wrong too.

I've been living a lot more carefreely these few days, so I got nothing to say other than that x) Is carefreely even a word? Lol. Firefox says not.

...I don't even want to think what a 'disco stick' is Dx

(...at least, for the most part.)

Death Note - A Little Piece of Heaven [LxLight: Poison Apple]

SINGLE BEST AMV IDEA I EVER HAD?
UH. YEAH BITCH.


SINGLE MOST DEMENTED, FUCKED UP, EPIC SONG IN THE UNIVERSE?
UH. YEAH BITCH.

-is now a rabid A7X fan-




no, I can't be arsed to type a proper post today
sorrryyy xD

(I forgot to do my daily dose of yaoi smut today ;___;

Maybe I shall sneak on in the dead of the night, later ;D)

(No wonder your heart feels it's flying
Your head feels it's spinning)

__________________
I want Sleeping Beauty.

No, seriously, it's such a random desire.

I just saw a bit of it in an AMV, and after the surprise at seeing such a old movie in a video, I thought: I want Sleeping Beauty.

I want to watch it all over again and relive the magic I'd long forgotten.

[Ah, Walt Disney. Creator of the ever ever afters.]

And I want Sleeping Beauty.

It's such a weird craving, like those food wants that pregnant women experience. But instead, a prepubescent girl is having a lust for a DVD.
XD
Ah, ever ever after.




...NOW!
I'm going to totally shatter this faerietayle-esque mood by telling you the results of my Dante's Inferno test.

...WHAT DO YOU MEAN 'WHAT'S DANTE'S INFERNO?'

AKLFEJSILJXDKSNNNNLZ.

BLASPHEMY.


no, seriously!

Even if you don't know what it is, in theory, surely you must have heard of it.

Heard of Divine Comedy. Of Dante himself. Or the Nine Circles of Hell.

...no?!

Oh god. Oh god what's wrong with this generation.


...Although I admit that the first I heard of Divine Comedy anything, was in Gilbert's book Eat, Pray, Love (MY own personal Bible), and...let me look for the page...It was in Italy, I think...

"...This Italian peninsula needed an Italian language, at least in the written form, which everyone could agree upon. So this gathering of intellectuals proceeded to do something unprecedented in the history of Europe; they handpicked the most beautiful of all the local dialects and named it Italian.

In order to find the most beautiful dialect ever spoken in Italy, they had to reach back in time two thousand years to fourteenth century Florence. What this congress decided would henceforth be considered proper Italian was the personal language of the great Florentine poet Dante Alighieri. When Dante published his Divine Comedy back in 1321, detailing a visionary progression through Hell, Purgatory and Heaven, he'd shocked the literate world by not writing in Latin. He felt that Lain was a corrupted, elitist language, and that the use of it in serious prose had "turned literature into a harlot" by making universal narrative into something that could only be bought with money, through the privilege of an aristocratic education. Instead, Dante turned back to the streets, picking up the real Florentine language spoken by the residents of his city (who included such luminous contemporaries as Boccaccio and Petrarch) and using that language to tell his tale.

He wrote his masterpiece in what he called dolce stil nuovo, the "sweet new style" of the vernacular, and he shaped that vernacular even as he was writing it, affecting it as personally as Shakespheare would someday affection Elizabethan English. For a group of nationalist intellectuals much later in history to have sat down and decided that Dante's Italian would now be the official language of Italy would be very much as if a gropu of Oxford dons had sat down one day in the early nineteenth centuary and decided that - from this point forward - everybody in England was going to speak pure Shakespeare. And it actually worked.

The Italian that we speak today, therefore, is not Roman or Venetian (those these were powerful military and merchant cities) not even really entirely Florentine. Essentially, it is Dantean. No other European language has such an artistic pedigree. And perhaps no language was ever more perfectly ordained to expression human emotions than this fourteenth-century Florentine Italian, as embellished by one of Western civilization's greatest poets. Dante wrote his Divine Comedy in terza rima, triple rhyme, a chain with rhymes with each rhyme repeating three times every five lines, giving his pretty Florentine vernacular what scholars call "a cascading rhythm" - a rhythm which still lives in the tumbling, poetic cadences spoken by Italian cabdrivers and butchers and government administrators even today. The last line of the Divine Comedy, in which Dante is faced with the vision of God Himself, is a sentiment that is still easily understandable by anyone familiar with so-called modern Italian. Dante writes that God is not merely a blinding vision of glorious light, but that He is, most of all, l'amor che move il sole e l'altre stelle...

"The love that moves the sun and the other stars."

So it's really no wonder that I want so desperately to learn this language."

There. Phew. I didn't look up from the book. xD

Anyway, now you are fully enlightened on Dante's work. I don't think I need to say more. Me, myself, I'm not very knowledgeable about it, but I'm going to get my hands on it one day.

...I must.


The second I heard of any of this Dante stuff was in Nilahxapiel's work, Phlegethon River.

“I read that book you told me about,” Raito interrupted him suddenly, looking down from the ceiling at L, “Dante’s Inferno. I read it.”

“I see,” L nodded, remembering their conversation.

“I have a lot of spare time in here,” Raito told him casually, leaning back in his chair. “I was thinking of becoming a doctor, but I think that’s sort of cliché, don’t you think?”

“I suppose,” L agreed, “That, and you’re never getting out of here, so you’ll never get to practice.”

Raito ignored the comment, “You know, L, what I found interesting?”

“Many things, I’m sure,” L responded.

“According to you, I’m a murderer,” Raito explained, “Which would make me ‘Violent against my neighbors’, and therefore in the Seventh Circle of Hell.”

“Yes,” L agreed, remembering that. “That would mean you would be thrown into a river of boiling blood…”

“The river Phlegethon,” Raito nodded, “But that’s not what I find interesting. What I find interesting, is that you would be in the same circle of Hell as I am. There were Violence against neighbors, violence against themselves, and violence against God and Nature. The last of them includes sodomites.”

L raised his eyebrows and Raito chuckled darkly.

“I find it so amusing that you are as bad as I am…just because you slept with me,” Raito gave out a harsh, insane giggle that L had never heard before. “Don’t you think that’s funny, Ryuzaki…?”

“This place is starting to wear on you,” L stated factually. Raito’s eyes narrowed sharply and all humor was erased from his face.

“Of course is bloody well is!” Raito sneered, “I’m in solitary confinement, L, what do you expect, you bastard?”

Raito breathed, and his face loosened and the corner of his mouth cocked into a small, half-smile.

“But I haven’t started talking to myself yet,” Raito said, laughing at the thought, “I even do chin up bars every day, for that whole hour I’m allowed to. And sit ups and anything else I can do while I’m stuck in here.”

“I’m glad you’re keeping healthy,” L told him, and Raito sighed.

“We had a nice conversation going here, and you ruined it,” Raito told him and then continued, “Where were we? Ah yes, the Seventh Circle of hell.”

“You still want to talk about that?”

“Yes, I’m not done, just because you interrupted with your random comment,” Raito rolled his eyes, “Anyways, the Seventh Circle of Hell is connected to the Eight Circle through the Phlegethon River. The Seventh Circle is violence and the Eighth Circle if fraud…now, I always think of you as the eighth circle. You’re more of a liar than an assailant, and while I don’t see myself as violent, I’m sure you and many others would disagree.”

L’ brow furrowed, “I believe you are fraudulent as well.”

Raito smiled bitterly, “I thought you might.”

“You’re a Seducer,” L told him.

“You’re a Sower of Discord.”

“You’re a Diviner.” Or, at least, you think you are.

“You’re a Hypocrite.”

“So are you.”

“You’re a Falsifier of Words.”

“You’re a Falsifier of Persons.”

“As are you.”

“You’re a thief.”

“I’ve never stolen a thing in my life,” Raito snapped. L snorted.

“I beg to differ,” L answered coldly, looking at Raito with a meaningful stare until the boy caught his drift. Those honey brown eyes widened and then narrowed again.

“If you want to put it that way, then so are you,” Raito spat cruelly. “Only I didn’t betray you, so you are therefore worse. You stole my heart and then turned me in.”

“Tell me, Raito-kun, when was I scheduled to die?” L inquired coolly, “Weeks later? Days?”

“Hours,” Raito growled, and L smirked slowly, shaking his head.

“You would have betrayed me too, then?” L asked, “You would have stole my heart and done me in. I just got there first, and you’re mad it wasn’t you.”

“Yes, I would’ve done it,” Raito admitted tightly, “But I wouldn’t have liked it. I would have…cried at your funeral.”

“Would you, now?” L sniggered, “You would cry for me? Even if the tears were feigned? How charming.”

“Fucking -screw you, L.”

“‘Fuck’ and ‘screw’ are synonyms and therefore your statement is redundant.”

AH, PHLEGETHON RIVER. EPIC? YES.

uh, anyway. digression over, then I was starting to get reaaalllly curious because Dante seemed to be a recurring theme in even modern publishings, and that's quite a feat.

Still though, while the notion of both Heaven and Hell existing freaks me out majorly, I applaud Dante for his imagination. That's quite vivid descriptions, judging from the little snippets I catch.

Anyway, on to the quiz. It's to see which circle I end up in.

I'm also going to just tell you my answers for the questions, because I'm so nice like that :'D



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"Through me the way into the suffering city,
Through me the way to the eternal pain,
Through me the way that runs among the lost.
Justice urged on my high artificer;
My maker was divine authority,
The highest wisdom, and the primal love.
Before me nothing but eternal things were made,
And I endure eternally.
Abandon every hope, ye who enter here."

Welcome to the Dante's Inferno Hell Test. This test, sponsored by the 4degreez.com community (the fine people who brought you the famous Personality Disorder Test), is based on the description of Hell found in Dante's Divine Comedy. Answer the questions below as honestly as you can and discover your fate. Based on your answers, your purity will be judged and you will be banished to the appropriate level of hell. Abandon all hope. [my, these guys are cheerful...]

After ten minutes this test will expire, so do not delay.

Please select your gender: Female.

Have you been attending religious worship lately? No
Have you been known to dress provocatively to attract the attention of the opposite sex? No
Do you own or plan to own a flashy sports car or an SUV? No
Have you suffered suicidal thoughts? No
Have you been in any physical fights in recent years? No
Have you ever cheated on a boyfriend, girlfriend, or spouse? No, but I probably would if I had one :)
Do you believe in astrology, tarot cards, and fortune-telling? No
Do you donate time or money to charities? No
Are you often very depressed? No
Do you believe in God? No (somehow I feel answering this question differently would drastically change my circle...lol)
Have you stolen anything from an employer or friend? Yes
Are you good at telling lies? Yeah Bitch xD
Do you look at pornography? Yes
Do you often lose your temper? No
Do you consider food to be one of life's finer pleasures? Yes
Do you intentionally cause harm to yourself? No
Do you intentionally cause harm to others, or to animals? No
Do you tend to hoard your money and possessions? Yes
Are you loyal to your friends and family through good times and bad? Yes
Have you had sex or do you plan to have sex before marriage? Yes
Do you think science and logic represent the pinnacle of human understanding? No
Do you use God's name in vain (ex. "God damn it," "Oh my God")? Yes
Do you enjoy violent movies and video games? Yes
Have you been to a strip club? No
Do you read scripture? No
Do you like to "live large"? Yes
Have you wished bad things upon your fellow countrymen? Yes
Have you ever attempted suicide? No
Do you give food or money to beggars? No
Do you believe it is your right to indulge yourself with every last dollar you earn? Yes
Have you recently done something that you've criticized others for doing? Yes
Have you ever visited or called a psychic? No
Do you repent for your sins? Yes and...No...and Yes, mostly.
Do you love to shop for yourself, even when you don't need anything new? No
Do you consider living a virtuous life to be one of your top goals? No
Do you believe in an afterlife? Yes
Do you "hate" a lot of people? No
Have you ever taken pleasure in someone else's misery? Yes (but only in a few situations, back when I was more sadistic)
Do you have any pagan religious beliefs? No
Have you ever lent money to someone and charged them interest or expected some "extra" in return? No
Have you ever engaged in oral or anal sex? No, but I would xD
Have you ever tricked someone into thinking you were someone whom you are not? No
Have you ever seduced someone, only to lose interest soon after? TRUST ME IF I COULD SEDUCE PEOPLE I WOULD XD
Can you see yourself engaging in treason against your country? No, I wouldn't be arsed to commit high treason.
Do you eat at restaurants several times a week? No
Are you ever attracted to members of your same sex? Yes
Have you ever gotten someone drunk, tricked someone, or used some other underhanded means to try to initiate sexual activity for you or for a friend? No
Would you sooner go without sex than go without good-tasting food? No way! Who the hell would pick gourmet buffets over one night stands?! And wouldn't this question either screw me over for either Lust or Gluttony either way? XD
Are you a "penny pincher"? Yes
Have you ever been sexually intimate with a member of your same sex? No
Do you hate yourself? No
Do you masturbate often? ...Yes
Have you ever intentionally given bad advice? No
Are you overweight? No
Think about some of the sinful or wrong things you've done in the past. Do you foresee yourself continuing to do these things? Yes
Do you make an effort to consume less resources (i.e. electicity, gasoline, plastic, glass, paper, etc.)? No
Could you picture yourself assassinating someone or ordering an assassination on someone if it meant that you would become very rich and powerful? No


Through God, all things are possible. False
In war, the best idea is to bomb the hell out of the other country. False
People are poor because they deserve to be, and should be given no help. False
Morals are relative. True
It's okay to punch someone if they "have it coming." False
Religion is fiction. True
Some people, such as Nostradamus, are able to predict future events. False
It's okay to cut a family member out of your life if they have done something that you strongly disagree with. False
Rich men and women deserve every penny and should spend or save their wealth as they wish. ...False
It is acceptable to use false flattery to get ahead. True
Hammering away on scandals is a good way to damage those with whom you disagree politically. Fucking false.
A pimp is a good thing to be. Hm... I'm in the middle, but I go for false xD
Fasting is a way of expressing religious conviction that you have chosen or would gladly choose. False. I think it's retarded.
Some people just deserve to die.
...HO HO HO, I KNOW YOU WROTE THIS NOW, KIRA-KUN.

...False.
:3

-SUBMIT!-

RESULTS?!

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Sixth Level of Hell - The City of Dis!

Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very High
Level 7 (Violent)	Moderate
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Take the Dante Inferno Hell Test


Interesting stuff, no? These are fun. I'm going to take this test tomorrow...Social Disorders, oh my, how fun.

Aye, there's no time for me to add some new tracks onto my Playlist, even though I've accumlated so many more favorite songs, and fell in love with Anberlin. It's late. I have to go.

Bye everyone! No nightmares about the 'River, mmkay? ;]












ღ " •▬▬▬▬▬▬▬▬▬▬▬▬▬▬▬▬▬▬▬▬▬(I've been dreaming of a true love's kiss)

[Deep down inside we want to believe they still do. ♥]

-by the way, I found out what love is.

It's a force, like gravity.

Except no experiment could prove it exists, and that's why it's the universal human secret. Pretty fun stuff.

- by the way, I found out the mechanics of said love.

Love works this way, like a hypnotic spell, like the mesmer, it will seduce your body into actions and words from a separate entity of itself.

- by the way, what a eureka moment, no?...

While we all love differently, for we are all different, the amazing thing is, love comes to us raw (and real) and can only be modified so much.

I was convinced it pretty much would be the same feeling for anyone else last night, as it was for me.

Love will take you like a puppet and make you do things you otherwise wouldn't.
Which is why I didn't see it coming when I moved my hand. But I didn't resist when - seemingly against my own accord - I gripped the shirt sleeve on top of me, gingerly.

...Well, gingerly... but with a determination that if I were to die on that bed that night right then...That I'd want to die with that shirt sleeve in my hand, at least.

And now, monsieurs and mademoiselles, for a special presentation.
Yes, I, Christie Ng Kwee Sing...
...Shall attempt to write her own SongMeaning.

Here, enlighten yourself:
http://www.songmeanings.net/songs/view/3530822107858709036/

I love that site. It's a unique idea and often clarifies songmeanings for me, does what it says :D

But strangely enough, for the song Great White Whale, I didn't get a satisfactory meaning from the comments, and made up my own, and I'm pleased with my own. So I'll share it here, because I don't want to endure ridicule on that site like, 'man, that's a lame-ass interpretation.'

...Also because deep down I'm a selfish prick and adore secrets.







Now, from a little bit of unintentional research, I learnt some about Moby Dick.




Apparently, someone in that story went looking for a great while whale, so to speak. This is slightly reminiscent of the 'white elephant' adage, where a white elephant is a trophy, a prized possession, a special snowflake, something akin to a four-leaf-clover...
And yet it's troublesome, does no work, gives you no benefit, and causes you more trouble instead.




I quote from said site, user trpowers:

"Me and a friend had a very long conversation about the meanings to all of these songs, and the nearest we could figure is that the entire album is about the start and end of a relationship, with the culmination of 'Great White Whale' being the final realization that nothing can ever be perfect, and that you destroy yourself in trying to obtain the the Great White Whale (white being pristine, the unattainable goal, in Moby Dick the white whale was the unattainable goal of Captain Ahab, and in this cd the Whale represents the perfect love, something which doesn't really exist, and is destroyed when one tries too hard to find it or to make someone into something perfect.)"

'Open field,' to me, seems to represent the past,



the what once was,






the heavenly memories that you thought was a perfect love, but really isn't because there's no such thing .






So what do you do when you've found your long ago faerietayle, just out of your grasp, believed to be 'the perfect love,' right under your fucking nose?






...you take it.




- by force.




and don't let it go.







don't let it go even if it rots, because no, you can revive it! ... You can revive it by force!
The flower was already half-dead before, (because unrequited love is a common thing you know), and when you tried to revive it by drowning it with too much water, with gentle affection turned rage and force... That's just a fail situation.


And what do you want with a failed, wilted flower? You may have kept the corpse longer than you needed to, just for the sake of your pride, but now...




What do you want with a dead thing that you once called love on your bloodied hands?


Good riddance, dear rose, and I hope you had the time of your life.

i now present to you


the eleventh want, the eighth deadly sin, the thirteenth Commandment that was made to be shattered:

I want a boy with lips like morphine.

School tomorrow!

The horror. The sheer, indescribable terror.

... Who cares. -__-

It may not be something I ever look forward to for as long as I live, but it will still be better than adulthood, at least.

For some reason...Never really liked school here.

Fitting in is not the same as belonging.
Belonging is knowing that you share a part of the school's heart, that you can be comfortable being yourself within that community...Fitting in is just conforming.

And I don't belong here. Whenever I 'be myself' (which is always...), I feel like I'm trying hard to make some sort of unspoken point. It drains my energy.

Bleh.

Anyway, I had another dream last night. Also, today is a day for revelation, for I just realized two things. Plus, some random shat about life an such. And I think I have blood pressure problems.



Let's take it one at a time.


The dream was....

...Jesus Christ. I'm watching the Lady and the Tramp now. It's so distracting. xD

UH OKAY THE DREAM WAS.
...rather bizzaro, because there were so many board and vast themes to the dream.
Maybe that's because it was more than one dream. it has been scientifically proven that dreams last no longer than ten minutes, so it's certainly possible. Wait, of course it's possible. -__- Did I not have two dreams in a row just a few days from today?!


One of those dreams were about eating bugs. Which I simply cannot understand, seriously. Why the fuck? Bugs? ... I don't even know if it was one crazy, interconnected dream, even...

They (and when I say they I mean the scientists) say dreams are the windows to your subconscious. Well, that explains a lot for the first dream. Thank you. Not.

...Also, since dreams are the window to your subconscious, doesn't that mean that Bella is basically, Smeyer, just thinner with less kids? Oh dear. If that's so, then since Bella is a horrid Mary-sue, Smeyers is a living, breathing Mary-sue. Jesus Christ, I think God is running out of good personalities to give us.

Uh, okay, enough with the bashing. That's not my style.

Anyway, the second dream was so clear-cut. I was immediately in Indonesia, in some shabby, tiny, dark apartment, and all sorts of mess was around the place.

The only lighting? A bulb hanging (precariously, I might add) from the ceiling.

And only one desk. And only one person sitting at it.


... My maid.



This dream, I forgot a lot more rapidly than the one I had about Mu/Hell. but I remember it's ending, although I don't know how I arrived in that setting. Was I even shown how I arrived there?

Apparently, I couldn't stay forever. I had to go. I don't even remember, now, whether that maid was Sri or Rosalie... all I remember is that I honestly loved them like anyone shouldn't love their caretaker. And I loved them to itty bitty little pieces. And they were so fucking poor, and uneducated. I asked her what her plans where, she drew out a map from the drawer and pointed out to me various schools. 'Get through Primary, Secondary, and University,' she told me. And I realized she wasn't schooled at all, so she was planning to start. It made no sense, but...it did.

And when I had to go, I realized how fortune seriously had neglected her, and how I am such a hypocrite not to give two shits about the starving children in Africa, and only pour my pity onto this twenty, thirty?- something woman who wasn't schooled at all, and then...I think it ended.








... :/

if this is a window into my subconscious, my subconscious is fucked up.









Uh, anyway, with that not-so-memorable-and-slightly-freaky-and-throughly-unnecessary-,-thank-you-very-much,-subconscious:-NOT, dream, let's switch topic. Also because, as I said, I'm watching LaTT and it is SO hard not to stay cheerful xD

Anyway as I was saying, today is a day for revelation.
Two not very happy revelations ):







Firstly, I found out why I have so few close friends...and so few close enemies, and actually none of the latter at all...

Is because, in my jaundiced eyes...All I see are numbers above their heads.

Everyone's below me, so to speak.

The numbers? Their lifespan: I am immortal, and to me...They're mortal. if I were to be Kami-esque, scum. P:

Everyone's below me, so to speak.

[Please, for the following, I hereby profusely apologize for sounding like some sort of whiny fucker with a Messiah complex: Let me assure you, I have both a superiority complex and an inferiority complex when it comes to different aspects of life...this is the former aspect.]

I have not found anyone on my level.

Intellectually speaking, anyone who is not as smart as me...but as...matured, as me.

Look at me. can't even get into the gifted stream. Probably not EM1, for that matter. If you think I'm talking about that kind of mature, you're wrong.

When I say matured...I mean, someone who's thought far too much on certain matters, seen too little of the world to already know it's good-for-nothing, and has spent so much time thinking about what really matters in life to know that it's eventually going to kill you.

And well, while I know all that, I'm not some overly angsting kid.
...I just know it.

Now, even I myself, in this time of ego-buttresting, doubt and think: am I really as matured as I say I am? I mean, my parents are forty. They have lived so much longer. Surely they are more fixed and stable in what they know, more certain and sure in what to do with their lives, than I am.

And then I think back to the day my mother just as good confessed to me that she chose to brainwash herself and become oh-so-slightly a religious fanatic, that age means nothing to maturity.

Just like a brand does nothing to establish how good the wine inside the bottle is, as my father so helpfully enlightened me on.

Ah - and what about my father?

...I don't know. I hardly know anything about my father. That's not why I prefer him.

...Um, take Risa for example. I don't know anything about her, except that she's THE one to go to if you're up for some crack insanity (♥ ya, bitch, now make me a sammich)

And her humor and good-naturedness is the only thing I can enjoy about her...Because that's all I ever know about her. P:

For all I know, she's above me in terms of humor :3 The same goes for my father




There's only one person who I reckon may even be higher than me :)
But of course, he was an old relief teacher of mind, so naturally, as well as looking to him, I'd look up to him. He's fun, and I have spilt my heart to him once, when distraught (trust me it made quite a mess, my heart), and to be honest that was absolutely refreshing.

So, thanks, dude. We should talk more often D:




But IRL, I seriously have not ever found anyone, who can connect to me, in my level. I may be able to enjoy them, honestly, some of the people I enjoy quite a lot, but they never show me just what level they're on, and from the little things I record about them in my mind...

They fall short.

Nobody I can ever really talk to, they never understand.

You don't have to agree with a person to understand them. Or at the very least, get a grasp on their fundamentals.

"No one had ever pushed his buttons in such a way. At least, no one had ever managed to do it more than once.

No one had ever done it and still been respected by him before."

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now for some random shat about life an such, as I promised.

For the second revelation, I found out the trick to animating!

It's not to use lots of frames. It's not (really...) to check anatomy every five seconds and use lots of references.

It's accuracy. Deadbeat accuracy.
Accuracy to character design, character proportions, character shapes and sizes. Character design. If you can make your character look true and blue to how they're supposed to look, and not vary it, you will pwn at animating.

So that's where I've went wrong. Huh.







Also... blood pressure problems.
Now the last time I checked (was a few years ago), and at that time the pressure was high. Too high. It was bad. I doubt it has gotten better.

Now, oh, now.

When it's cold, the blood pumps through my body even faster, and I mean I can hear my heartbeat thudding in my ears and my neck. It's probably doing me no good. And it's happening right now, in front of the computer screen: I'm shivering. Fuck. Any remedies? ):








And now for a random update: Can't Go Back by Hedley is officially my new theme/favorite song.
All bow down to the tune that rocks both our socks off. Amen.




๑۩۩๑
In a time when everything was free

And the whole damn world revolved around me

I can't go back
and I won't go back to you



But I can't set free

[this part of me]

When I'm crawling back to you

And I won't let you forget

[how far we've gone]

Because that

one
great
final
mistake


I won't let you make

- So take my advice,
and save your goodbyes

You're never alone

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU




lrisa says:
MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
(xD)





Chris; [disenchanted] says:
omg nuuuu
Not the attack of the cutesy zombie emoticon

lrisa says:
it's a cutesy /skeleton/ eticon
*emoticon

Chris; [disenchanted] says:

WILD PUSS IN BOOTS APPEARS!
PUSS IN BOOTS USES 'THE FACE'!
IT IS SUPER EFECTIVE!
RISA BLACKS OUT.
YOU ARE OUT OF USABLE POKEMON.

lrisa says:
NO.
IT'S RISA /FAINTED/

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
WHUTEVA

lrisa says:
YOU ARE A PIRATED VERSION OF POKEMON

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
D8!

lrisa says:
-GOES ALL POLICE ON YOU-

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

lrisa says:
I MEAN KIRA

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
LOLWHUT

lrisa says:
*-GOES ALL KIRA ON YOU-

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
SHIIIIT
THEY'RE ON TO ME

lrisa says:
DIE PLZ

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
NOPLZ.
BECOZ
I
AM
LLLLLL.
BACK FROM TEH GR@VE
AND I'M GONNA KICK YOUR ASS WITH MY SUPERNATURAL FALCON KICK
-pwns-
C:


lrisa writes:
-draws deadnote-
lrisa says:
YES I GOT LAZY
I WILL USE
THE DEADNOTE
ON YOUR ASS

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
LOL
OHSHITE
WAAIT WAIT WAIT
YOU CANNOT
BECAUSE
GOD DECIDED TO GIVE ME A PROMOTION
IM A SHINIGAMI NAO
(jesus christ i'm ripping off fanfiction plots here
i'm a saddo xD)

lrisa says:
shush
*SILENCE FOOL

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
LOL

lrisa says:
I, GOD KIRA
IS BUSY

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
AWWW
WELL YOU HAVEN'T CHANGED A BIT
busy what -_____- Being a narcissist?

lrisa says:
DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

lrisa writes:
-YO ASS on the notebook xD-

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
LOL
WELL DAMN
UH...THAT'S...


...nice handwriting

lrisa says:
IN 45

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
(omg that icon
It's like...Kira's laugh xD)

lrisa says:
MILLION
HOURS
YOU WILL DIE

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
LOLWHAT

lrisa says:

WELL THIS IS THE DEADNOTE

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
WRONG BITCH
ITS SUPPOSED TO BE FORTY NOT FORTYFIVE

lrisa says:
THE DEATHNOTES WERE SOLD OUT IN THE SHINGAMI CANDY SHOP

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
...candy shop?

lrisa says:
IT'S FOURTY FIVE BEAUSE
I

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
are you sure it's not more of a apple store?

lrisa says:
LORD KIRA, GOD OF HUMANS
SAYZ SO.

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
PFFFF
WELL YOU JUST WAIT TILL MY HEIR KICKS YO ASS.

lrisa says:
SHINIGAMI CANDY /ARE/ APPLES
PFFFT
YOU WAIT TIL /MY/ HEIR KICKS YOUR HEIR'S ASS
BY OUTWITTING YOU IN EVERYWAY
BECAUSE
I
AM
*HE
IS

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
AND U KNO WHUT FOR THE 45 MILLION YEARS I'M GONNA FOLLOW YOU LIKE A GHOST HEHEHEHE

lrisa says:
KIRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
YOU HAVE A HEIR?!
OH GOD PLZ NOT MIKAMI

lrisa says:
AND BECAUSE HE IS A MARYSUE
BUT SHHHH

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
...WAIT
IS IT
OUR
ILLEGITIMATE SON?
ITS OUR SON ISNT IT
YAY MPREG

lrisa says:
....NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
I HAVE A SON?1

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
....YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
...YESYOUDO.

lrisa says:
OH MY MYSELF.

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
...well, you do now.
YES, OH YOUR GOD


lrisa says:
OH. MY. MYSELF.
MY SONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!1!!!ONE

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
x 10000000000000000000000000000000000

lrisa says:
TAKE REVENGE ON YO MOMMA

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
LOL WHAT
NO

lrisa says:
SHE HAS

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
UR THE MOMMA

lrisa says:
NAGGED ME TO DEATH

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
UR THE UKE BITCH

lrisa says:
NO
YO DA MOMMA

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
I'M FUCKING SEME

lrisa says:
NO
YOU SAID "MY SON"

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
FFFFFUUUUUU
NOWAI
SO?!
Dx

lrisa says:
THUS I AM THE DADDY

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
WTF

lrisa says:
well
he is my son

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
YOUR SON MEANS YOUR CHILD
IT DOES NOT INDICATE GENDER

lrisa says:
*WELL
HE IS MY SON
BECAUSE THE DEADNOTES SAY SO

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
WHATTHEFUCK
THEN WHY DIDNT U REALIZE SOONER HMMM

lrisa says:
AH HA!
SEEE

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
IF THE NOTE SAID SO
WHY DID I HAVE TO TELL YOU
U THICK MORON

lrisa says:
I DIDN'T KNOW HE WAS THE SON
BECAUSE
I

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
BECAUSE?

lrisa says:
WAS NOT HIS MOMMA
YOU WERE PREGANTN DUDE

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
.... -facepalm-

lrisa says:
AND YOU WERE PREGNANT
IN THE AFTERLIFE
.....ZOMG MY SON'S A SHINIGAMI

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
NOWAI!
YOU COULD PASS FOR A GIRL, DIPSHIT
UR THE GIRL
...ZOMG NO
ITS A CROSS

lrisa says:
YOU WEAR MAKEUP DIPSHIT

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
BETWEEN SHINIGAMI AND HUMAN

lrisa says:
AND GIRLS

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
... D8

lrisa says:
DO NOT HAVE
CRAZY

LAUGHS

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
...wanna bet?

lrisa says:
NO.

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
):

lrisa says:
I AM RIGHT

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
WELL
BOYS

lrisa says:
DEADNOTE SEZ SO

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
DO NOT HAVE SUCH GIRLY SITTING POSITIONS
NOR ATTITUDES
NOR BITCHY RANTS
NOR ABSOLUTELY FEMININE HAIR

lrisa says:
BUT I HAVE A CUTEFAIS

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
WAIT WHAT ARE WE DOING
A HAPPY FAMILY SHOULDN'T BICKER
THIS IS BAAAAAD INFLUENCE ON OUR SON
D8

lrisa says:
-HAS NO LIGHT DPS-

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
YOU HAVE A /FAIL/FAIS!

lrisa says:
RAITO
I MEAN

Chris; [disenchanted] says:

lrisa says:
I HAVE AN /EBILFACE/ TOO

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
i called himmmmm Raitozaki



[dies]

lrisa says:
...WHAAAAAAT?
YOUR NAMING SKILLS
THAT'S IT
YOU'RE THE WOMAN

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
HAHAHA

lrisa says:
...OR ARE YOU?

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
WELL U WOULD'VE CALLED HIM KIRA 2.0

lrisa says:
WELL

Chris; [disenchanted] says:

lrisa says:
I LIKE RAITOZAKI JUST FINE
IT SHOWS MY MANLINESS
....OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG A LIZARDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
-SHRIEKS-

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
.... -headdesk-
Jesus Christ
You are incredibly high pitched, you know that?

lrisa says:
No i do not
the deadnote does not say it
AND IT'S
RAITO CHRIST
TO YOU

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
LOL

lrisa says:
OR
YAGAMI ALMIGHTY

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
Well, Kira Christ DOES sound catchy.
By the way, Raitozaki-kun has my surname
Hence proving my VERY male-ness, thankyewverymuch.
Now make me a sandwich, bitch.

lrisa says:
awww, you flatterer
...WHUT
NO

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
SANDWICH
NOW
...WITH CHOCOLATE SPRINKLES

lrisa says:
YOU GET THE SANDWICH YOURSDELF, FAG

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
-GASP-

lrisa says:
NO

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
D'8
WHATTTT

lrisa says:
CHOCOLATE SPRINKLES IS BAD FOR YOUR HEALTH

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
...
aww thanks for caring ♥
-smoochie.-

lrisa says:
awwww
-melts-


Chris; [disenchanted] says:
NOW. SAMMICH, BITCH.

lrisa says:
....I'M GIVING YOU A NICE CHEESY SANDWICH

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
NOOO
FUCK CHEESE
lol

lrisa says:
NO


Chris; [disenchanted] says:
oh ehm gee he melted.

lrisa says:
WOULD YOU WANT A BAG OF CHIPS INSTEAD?

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
-pokes melted Kira-

lrisa says:
IT HAS

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
...Chocolate chips?

lrisa says:
MANY NUTRIENTS

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
YEAH LIKE THE RAT POISON YOU THREW IN

lrisa says:
AND A PORTABLE TV

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
LOL

lrisa says:
IT'S GOOD AND NUTRICIOUS
DAMN SPELLING

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
SORRY, I THINK I'LL LEAVE THE EPIC CHIP - MUNCHING TO YOU
SPARKLECHIPS WERE MADE FOR THE WOMAN, Y'KNOW.

lrisa says:
NO
SPARKLECHIPS WILL RUIN MY WAISTLINE
.....AM I FAT?
BE HONEST
AND BRUTAL
(BY THE WAY, I SUPPORT LXRAITO XDDD)

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
(LOL I never would've guessed
...I feel SO tempted to actually try and draw their illegitimate lovechild now.)

lrisa says:
(DOOOO ITTTT)
(and i'll give you a fict in return 8D)
(AND HEY
WHO WANTS THEIR CHARACTER TO BE UKE?)

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
...... FAT?
AYE, YOU KNOW IF YOU JUST USE YOUR BRAIN, YOU'D BE THIN, YOU SILLY POCKY.
...Which is why you got insanely obsese after I died. My bloody heirs didn't mindfuck you enough. And the way you're going, you shouldn't be eating...you should be VOMITING
[/brutalplz]
...
(LOOOL
I'll try
I've contemplated it once.
...ZOMG YOU WRITE FICS WHERE WHERE WHERE)

lrisa says:
LOL
IT'S PRACTICE
AS IN, I WRITE FICTS TO PRACTICE
CUZ I'M NOT GOOD YET
BUT IN MANY CHINESE LESSONS
FICTS WERE BORN

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
AH, YES.
CHINESE LESSONS DO HAVE THEIR ADVANTAGES.


lrisa says:
and okay i'mma going back

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
Right.

lrisa says:
WHAT?
YOU THINK I'M FAT?

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
...MAKE ME A SAMMICH, BITCH.
...Well, you're going to be soon.

lrisa says:
YOU HYPOCRITICAL BASTARD

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
I mean, Jesesu Christ, look at that...Your belt doesn't fit anymoar

lrisa says:
WHAT ABOUT THE FLAB YOU HAVE?

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
...WHUT FLAB

lrisa says:
AND THAT SWEATSHIRT
GOD
DO YOU NOT KNOWN HOW TO WASH YOUR CLOTHES?

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
uh...
NO

lrisa says:
AND YOUR JEANS
THEY ARE SO
PATCHY AND
DISGUSTING

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
AND AFTER U KILLED WATARI
I GOTTA STICK IN THESE STINKY STUFF
BITCH.

lrisa says:
WELL YOU ARE USELESS

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
...
They're DESIGNER LEVIS, BITCH

lrisa says:
I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY I HAD RAITOZAKI WITH YOU
I'M LEAVING
.......DAMN THIS SHINIGAMI REALM

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
... LOL
YOU CAN'T LEAVE

lrisa says:
where's the freakin' exit?
*damn lapslock

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
I'M BACK, REMEMBER?
I'M BACK TO HAUNT YOUR SOUL

...And get you to make me a sammich

lrisa says:
WHERE'S THE FREAKIN' EXIT IN THIS PLACE?
no
if you want chocolate sprinkles on your sammich

make it yourself, fathead

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
Oh yes, it's ALWAYS the woman that walks out in a huff

lrisa says:
WHAT WOMAN?

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
always.

lrisa says:
I'M ALL MAN

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
YEH RIGHT

lrisa says:
-PULLS OFF PANTS-
-AND THONG-

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
-....
manthong?

lrisa says:
duh.
do i look like i'm any less to you?

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
....uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuukkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

lrisa:
BEHOLD, IT'S SPARKLY
-AND IT DOES SPARKLE-

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
*cough cough*
OH JESUS
NO SPARKLES.
GOD
NO SPARKLES.
-eyes burn-

lrisa says:
GOD
LOVES
SPARKLES

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
...SO /UR/ STEPHANIE MEYER IN DISGUISE WITH HER SPARKLE FETISH

lrisa says:
OH DON'T BE A WIMP

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
WOMANWOMANWOMAN

lrisa says:
NO BUT I APPRECIATE HER SPARKLY TENDACIES

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
SLJLSJKDLSCIJEOJLJKXLMSME!

lrisa says:
EDWARD CULLEN'S STORY IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO TRAGIC

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
I am SO divorcing you

lrisa says:
LIKE OMG
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH
AND IT'S SO SADDDDDDDDD

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
....Wow.


That was burn.

lrisa says:
AND HE'S SO SWEEEET
TO CHASE AFTER A DUMB BLONDE
xD


Chris; [disenchanted] says:
...brunette.

lrisa says:
i'mma just thinking about

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
Bella's a brunette

lrisa says:
what fucking tweenies will say

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
because, you know, Bella is SMEYERS IN EVERY WAY, SHAPE AND FORM?!

lrisa says:
WELL, I H8 BELLA
I H8 BELLE LYK YAH

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
BECAUSE SHE STOLE YER MAN, KIRA-KUN?

lrisa says:
DON'T USE THAT TONE ON ME
I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT YOU
HAVE BREAKING DAWN UNDER YOUR PILLOW

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
ALL THIS TIME
YOU WERE TWO-TIMING ME
...FOR A SPARKLY DISCOBALL THAT HAPPENS TO HAVE MORE MOOD SWINGS THAN A PREGNANT LADY

-bitchslap-

lrisa says:
NO
I WAS

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
-uses that tone on you-
You sounded an awful lot like a mother when you said that ;D

lrisa says:
TWO TIMING YOU WITH A SPARKLY PINATA THAT HAPPENS TO HAVE MORE MOOD SWINGS THAN A PREGNANT YOU

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
...

lrisa says:
I'm a good mother?
:'DDDD

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
yeah, sure.

lrisa says:
-tears up-
DON'T CHANGE THE SUBJECT

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
...oh jesus
not one of those motherly meltdowns

lrisa says:
WHAT ABOUT THAT BREAKING DAWN I FOUND UNDER YOUR PILLOW?
I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT

IT IS
TOO STRONG
VIOLENT
AND GORY

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
...I don't know whether you're more obnonxious when you're being melty, or being... a bitch.

lrisa says:
BECAUSE OF

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
WELL YEAH
OF COURSE IT IS
EDDIE KINS RAPED BELLA, DIPSHIT

lrisa says:
....-whispers-BELLA GIVING BIRTH

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
...OH GOD THE HORRERRRRRRRRR

lrisa says:
...I REALLY NEED RAITO ICONS

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
I can give you some.

lrisa says:
some of his faces plz 8D

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
...but i won't
cos I brb

lrisa says:
D8
BITCH
DON'T LEAVE ME
....BITCH.

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
...

lrisa says:
YOU HAVEN'T GOT ME MY SAMMICH

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
...That...Was the most romantic thing.
...ever.
-does not leave you-

lrisa says:
YEAH YEAH ROMANTIC

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
..-wait, DOES leave you-

lrisa says:
SANDMMICH.

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
brb.

lrisa says:
i hope that means you're getting my sammich, woman.

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
Good Ghandi Almighty. How did I have an illegtimate lovechild with such a drama queen.
Notice queen instead of king.
*sigh*
Well, a husband most tolerate his wife...
-throws sammich in yer FACE-
...hey.
Hey?


HEY.
Don't leave me, fucking cunt!
Or I swear, I will...Um.
I WILL BRING MELLO AND MATT BACK FROM THE GRAVE (WHO R DED THANX TO YOUR WHORE GF TAKADA, GEE THANKS), AND THEY WILL WHOOP YOUR ASS
and they will riddle Raitozaki to bulletsMWAHAHAHA
*WITH bullets
God
srs typo is srs

lrisa says:
LOL
SORRY
LYK HAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
KIRAKIRA-SAMA IS AWAY RIGHT NOW
-ubuu-
LYK WAHT KEN I DO FOR YOU

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
AKJFLKJSLJEIJKLX! Dx
...
well, you CAN make me a sammich

lrisa says:
*3*

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
which my phailure of a wife REFUSED to do

lrisa says:
L O L

WAHT'S A SAMMICH?

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
...
jesusdesu Christ...

Chris; [disenchanted] sends:

Cancel(Alt+Q)
Chris; [disenchanted] says:
well,

lrisa says:
-ubuu-

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
you asked for icons
...Kira icons
:3

lrisa says:
but it doesn't have one of his epic faces D8

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
strangely, most of these originated from deviantArt PLZ accounts lol

lrisa says:

Chris; [disenchanted] sends:


Chris; [disenchanted] says:
if that's not epic, may sparklechips be more awesome than me.
NOW CAN WE PLEASE GET BACK TO OUR CRACK RP. lawliet needs his sammich T__T

You have just sent a nudge.

lrisa says:
YEY

Transfer of "raitolaughplz.gif" is complete.

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
indeed -______-

lrisa says:
SPARKLECHIPS ARE MORE AWESOME THAN YOU

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
FFFS!

lrisa says:
xDDDD
WELL
I'MMA READING MY MANA

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
REMEMBER I AM A SHINIGAMI NAO
I HAVE MORE POWER THAN HEAVEN OR HELL

lrisa says:
*MAN-GA

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
I SHALL KILL YOU 4 THAT
SCREW YOUR MANGA
I NEED MY CHOCOLATE SPRINKLE SAMMICH
-is neglected-
D':

SKAJLDKASLJLZJLJEMLZKDNZ.
No more crack? D':

lrisa says:
yesh
crack

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
right.

lrisa says:
but after i get off my phone

Chris; [disenchanted] says:
...I am so not going to be able to sleep tonight
Crack is like caffeine to me

We've burned the books and made it
For you to be the fire starter

Damnit...
I'm nowhere near good enough to get an encore, least not at all in Co-Op mode.

And since that's the only way to get the song, (other than buying it but it's so exxxxxxxxxxx,), that means I'll never get to play Monsters on GH3 D':

Poor me.

Whatever, I can still enjoy the song.


By the way, some tunes on my Playlist are restricted due to country licensing stuff?! Like what what whatt the hell. Fucking shit.

okay okay rant over!
Hehe. ^^


Sorry for the previous post - no wait, I'm not sorry. Because I needed to get that off my chest, so yeah. It was refreshing. But now I just couldn't care less.

I'm sorry for that, at least. Caring was my mistake. You want to know something? I don't mind whether you guys tear each other to shreds anymore. Even if you all meant something to me, friends are fickle things and things I can live without. I've lived without them for long periods at a time. Walking testimony here.

I'll smile at the ones who will stick to my side, even though it's pointless for them to do so. I'll smile at everyone else who doesn't, too.

And for those who will forever act like six year olds, I'll laugh at and tell them to suck my - oh wait, I'm afraid I don't have one. Well whatever.






And since I don't care for who you are anymore, I can focus my attention on on what you do, which is, THE POINT. Six year olds can make some pretty fierce MVs, and that's all I care about.
I don't care about your shit anymore. That's called excercising healthy apathy.
All I care about are the things I shouldn't care about. That's called safe empathy, and anything else is dangerous...
(which goes to show I'm a coward)



...shit. I just started yet another rant. OK, my ranting is really over this time.



...Now for some /whining/




-deep breath-


OH GOD I HATE PROCRASTINATING


...SO WHY DO I STILL DO IT

T_____T





Lenzarious: Ahem. Let me explain. This girl's got four more days to do her Science Project, and is whining about it.

Which is...beyond me, truly.




Good point, Lenzarious! Good OC. I'm just going to procrastinate further and ignore it for tonight. I don't care anymore.

Lenzarious: ._____. That...wasn't what I was saying, but okay. I've got nothing against procrastination. =shrugs=




anyway.

I just watched TopGear! It was the best thing ever xD First episode of Season 13 (which meant it was filmed in June 09)


Richard Hammond: Aaaand we're having a race.
Me in the motorbike, James in the Jaguar, and Clarkson in the steam train...As you can see from this map, we're headed to Edinborough.

Jeremy's in the lead, I'm second, and...Caption Slow, of course, bringing up the rear.

James May: Steady.

Richard: Planning to... -ominous- Take me from behind.

James: What! Oh come on -

Richard: And then he's going to press his advantage and take Jeremy in the tunnel.

James: OH COME NOW WHEN YOU PUT IT LIKE THAT D<



EPIC.

MY GOD YOU GUYS

SERIOUSLY WTF IS UP WITH THE AMV COMMUNITY

FOR FUCK'S SAKE

WOULD YOU ALL SHUT UP. SHUT UP. SHUT UP. SHUT UP. YOU'RE ALL BLOODY STUPID IF YOU LET PEOPLE PISS YOU OFF. AND I'M EVEN STUPIDER, BECAUSE NOBODY'S PISSING ME OFF AND I LET MYSELF GET PISSED OFF BECAUSE YOU GUYS ARE.

BLOODY FUCKING ANNOYING. I HATE CARING SO MUCH THAT I CARE WHETHER YOU GUYS ARE FIGHTING. I HATE CARING SO MUCH THAT I SEE A PERSON I ADMIRE TRASH ON ANOTHER IDOL OF MINE, I FEEL TORN IN TWO, SHUT. UP.

AND YOU'RE ALL FIGHTING LIKE SCHOOLCHILDREN. STOP PULLING EACH OTHER'S HAIR AND NO, SHE'S NOT THE DEVIL INCARNATE YOU SILLY FOOL, GET YOUR BRAIN OUT OF THE GUTTER.



BUT I'LL TELL YOU, BECAUSE I'M SO KIND.

YOU'RE MISSING THE POINT.

the fucking point.




Thank you for listening, and goodnight.


Oh, and: don't let the door hit you where the good Lord split you, honey.

Jeremy Clarkson: So now that you're on the show, why don't you tell us what's the worst thing you can say about a car you've had.

Simon Cowell: *thinks*

Good airbags.

-Audience: LOL-

Clarkson: ...No I said car, not girlfriend.

-Audience: ROFLCOPTER-

Cowell: We didn't script that! Swear we didn't.







Hahahah I just watched an episode of TopGear, haven't seen that show for far too long. I've decided that I will have an intro, with the TopGear theme. Lolz.





By the way, worked out how to throw in a playlist! It's too big, but oh well. Just be glad I didn't make it autostart. Heh.


I highly suggest you check out my tunes.
they're what make my head tick the way it does, after all.

lrisa says:
AND WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING UP YOUNG LADY?
....watching pronz?

Chris; [raison d'être.] says:
WHAT DO YOU THINK
...yes.

lrisa says:
-sniff-
I AM SO PROUD

Chris; [raison d'être.] says:

YOUR LITTLE GIRL HAS ALL GROWN UP 8'D

Mmmmmmhm.
I'll see whether I can get ref sheets of my OCs up soon, too.



1) First list all your OC’s by first name so we can see your list of all your wonderful OC’s

alias in brackettssssss

1: Mizuriken (Mizuri, Mizu)

2. Lenzarious

3. Kaldewei (Kal)

4. Ramone (Ryuk)

5. Helsing

6. Vanzino (Van, Vanny)

7. Soren

8. Zeth (Zenneth)

9. Jolene. (JoJo)

2) Who is your favorite OC?

GUH. UM. UM. Tie between Kal and Mizuri.

3) Who is your least favorite?

Mmmm, Lez. No matter how hard I try and change it, his personality always seems Gary-stuish to me )':

4) Who is your most developed?

Oh. Wow. Tough one. Honestly don't know, but it HAS to be a tie between 1, 2, and 3 because they're my oldest.


...Yeah, actually Kal. He's the most developed.


5) Which OC would you want to date if they magically came to life?

...Must it be a date?
Because if it was a one-night-stand, Vanny for sure.

If it's just a 'date' date, then Lenzarious. :3

6) How many girl OCs do you have? Boy OCs? It OCs?

2 girls, 7 boys, 1 it (Helsing XD)

7) If you were stuck in a burning building what do you think the third OC on your list would do?

He'd call an ambulance...? And then eat popcorn. He doesn't panic. XD

8) Name one thing you regret about one of your OCs.

Giving Mizuri and Lenz lame-ish character designs. o.e

9) Which of your OCs do you think would make the best father/mother/it parent out of all your OCs and why??

Haha, well Ramone or Soren, Mizu as a mother. Zeth has the father vibe but is hopeless at caring for himself, forget other little dykes.

10) Which of your OCs do you think will most likely be put in jail?

Soren is definitely the one who defies the law most, and even though Ramone is not as notorious he's more clumsy so...Ramone.

11) The eighth of your OCs was put into the future! What will their job be?!?

Gasp gasp! Ummmmm. Zenneth would probably get some job at a club or pub as a bartender or something. XD And he does rather like that job.

12) Name the first OCs catch phrase! (if they don’t have one just make one up)

AYE, MIZU'S CATCH PHRASE YOU SAY?

http://damphyr.deviantart.com/art/Deal-with-it-39428311

XD

13) Do all your OCs live together or are they separated?

First three live together at Mizu's place. The rest live in various places, be it a penthouse or a shabby rented HDB flat.

14) Are there any pairings that are in your OC list? (they can’t be with someone else's)

Mmmmmmm Lenzarious x Kaldewei. They were literally made for each other. No srsly.

15) Your seventh OC switched bodies with you for a day! How will they react at the end of the day?

Haha...Let's just say Soren would have one HELL of a day...I don't know how ANYONE would react if they were a twenty-something loanshark who got into a preteen girl's body.

16) Your last OC just became a fifteen year old. What do they do?

She's older than fifteen... o__o

but if you flashback to her birthday, the first thing she did was go to the movies with friends, and then stay up all night on Guitar Hero. And ate nothing for breakfast, lunch and dinner but sushi. Yum.

17) Now randomly select a person on your OC list. Who was it?

Goodness, Vanzino has hardly been in this meme at all. Poor him, he's neglected. Vanny it is!

18) That OC you just chose? Yeah they think they are superman (even if they are a girl) and are on the roof about to jump off./

...LOL.

He's probably strike an epic pose, like so :icondivaplz:
And then make some melodramatic speech before jumping.

19) Are any of your OCs bored of this meme?

Zeth's bored because he hasn't done anything so far either. D:

20) Would your second OC prefer the beach or the mountains?

Mountains, hell yes you've got lots more to see at mountains rather than just sand, water, shells, and...dirt.

21) Would your tenth OC battle a shark?

I don't have a tenth xD

22) Which OCs hate each other?

Ramone and Zeth.

Lenzarious and Kal do aggravate each other on a daily basis too, though.

23) Which OC did you create first? And last?

Mizuri. She was gonna be my fursona, but...yeah.
Jolene's the newest.



25) And if those two were fighting, who would win?

haha catfight...
...they'd tie.
Where's question 24, btw?

26) Are your OCs fat or skinny?

Most of them are average, and I don't have many that are skinny. Zeth's got puppy fat, though. x3

27) What are your first 2 OC's favorite foods?

Mizuri? ITALIAN. No contest.
Lenz? Anything exotic. :D

28) If your listed OCs were in a fight to the death, who would emerge victorious?

Helsing.
Because he's a fucking huge dragon-hybrid thing.

But if you exclude Helsing, because he's got a preposterous advantage, you'd get Vanzino and Lenzarious. Lenz would win though. He's trained, Vanzino's just got natural strength.

29) There's a zombie attack and your OCs are stranded. Who do they elect to be their leader?

They'd elect Lenz.

30) During said zombie attack, who's the first to die?

...Probably Lenz too. Because when he's the leader, he's got it in his head that he's gotta have some sort of heroic death. XD

'Til there's nothing left of me
Show me the way to these dreams

- Kutless: More Than It Seems

I had two insane dreams last night...

And you know how dreams are.

Kutless was right: they blur the line between reality and fantasy...Sanity and downright madness.


I love dreams but...sometimes they scare me. And I'm not referring to even nightmares here, because...All dreams consequently scare me, I think.




It's their absurd accuracy and in-your-face quality that frightens the shit out of me.


It's how to manage to hit the nail on the head. And you didn't even realize a nail was there.


I don't know, they... just...


Blah.


I've had a lot more dreams in the past month that I've had in the past twelve years.
Riight.
That's...spooky.


I had two last night. Two. I've never had anything like them.






Mom got run over in a carpark, in one.

I went, oh god, mouth agape, ran over, shook her...And felt surprisingly calm?

Now this felt real. This dream felt like it would and could actually happen. I didn't panic, ran thoughts through my head logically and systematically, checked her vital signs, pulse, all that jazz. Then, I turned to the onlookers, who were justifiably shocked, said, 'Well MOVE you fuckers! Call someone, Jesus Christ MORONS.'

A guy (maybe he was from the ambulance?) grinned at me, 'No, her neck bones are shattered, she's a goner.' And I replied, 'No you FUCKER she's not dead!!'


later turns out it was all an act -__- Mom set it up, apparently and was so proud that I 'didn't panic', although nothing was said for my swearing like haha?











but it's the second one that really freaked me out. Actually, no, I think the one where Mom got run over was the second dream. ...This was the first.

And, I only just realized...This was my dream of Hell. This is what Hell would be to me. No Phlegethon river, no nine circles, no Dante's Inferno, no Hell but...No Hell, but it was Hell.

It was Hell.

It was this.
















_________________________________________

This is where I come into the story.


I don't know, I just...appeared.


It was as if I was just a resident of the tower all along, and just decided to, uh, make an entrance.







The tower had a balcony. Was it the only one?




I don't know. Maybe.




I found Raito-kun on the balcony. No, wait, it wasn't the only one. There was another, just beside it, and I found myself on the adjacent ledge.



For all I knew, the sun could be setting, but...it was so pink-orange the whole time I was (or wasn't?) here. Who knew?

a permanent state of dawn...seemed almost beautiful.










He didn't budge, as if he'd never heard me.



Proof that L meant something to him,
Right?