Yesterday night couldn't sleep, had a fucker of a headache. It's inferior to the all-powerful migraine, but it did annoy me somewhat. It was like a dull throb of pain.

And the pain wasn't what annoyed me.

No, it was that kind of pain.

It's that kind of pain that's well within your threshold limit. It's the kind of pain you don't mind experiencing. You know it hurts, but it hurts so little you can't be arsed about it. You can just observe the pain, appraise it. It's that kind of throb that doesn't bother you, merely ... keeps you awake.

It throb didn't go away.

And so I couldn't sleep.

Probably was past midnight.

So I got up, -damn now the throb was draining down to my feet, too-, shuffled some papers put some fragile things where they'd break less easily, and then...

And then I took advantage of the pink light outside.

It was just such a dull shade of purple, really.

I leaned my forehead against the glass, the part where I wouldn't feel the cold.

And I watched the outside.

We really got a house with a view, neighbors, their house turns black at night with lit windows like candles inside a Halloween pumpkin. Fantastic.

And a sea view.

A sea view.

And the shore harbor in Wellington is absolutely breathtaking to me, because I love it when Santa accidentally drops his Christmas tree lights onto the most absurd of places and lights them up in an attempt to find them.

I leaned my forehead against the glass.

I always loved the dawn, I always loved experiencing the dawn, at 1 am.
I never figured out why, but last night I did.

I loved the feeling of having the world all to myself,

when everyone else was sleeping, only I witnessed the dawn, experienced the experience, and owned the planet.

Nobody else was awake to see me and see the sun.


When nobody else was awake, I was free to raze the world to the ground, revel in it's beauty, rampage all throughout the land.

This could be called a feeling of power, but I was far too happy for it to be.

No, it wasn't power.

Not sure what it was.

Nevermind.

Doesn't matter.

Because I had the world in my palm.