you can't even put a face to her name-.



I LIVE!

school was fun hehehe. I love German class. Funny shit. First thing that happened when we walked in, the teacher didn't speak ANY English whatsoever.

She just introduced herself in German, repeating it a few times, and then asked us, what is your name?

Haha. It was so fun. I can introduce myself in five languages now (English, Chinese, Japanese, German, French). I forgot my French numbers though, those were fugly. But German....

0 - null

1- eins

2- zwei

3 - drei

4 - vair

5 - funf

6 - sechs

7 - sieben

8 - acht

9 -neun

10 -zehn


I AM AWESOME! Go me.

Lunchtime. Now I have established a little clique of sorts. Me, India, this Georgia person (who is rather cooler than us, so I shall use her as a ladder on the food chain), and this...I forget how to spell her name. But shit we have lots in common.

And...Gods above, but she reminds me of Michelle...its no wonder I took a liking to her straightaway. And she chose to hang out with us.

I'm astounded...This year might not turn out so bad after all.

We laughed and joked and had fun during lunchtime. It was....It was great.

"Okay so, I lost three things today. My way, my blazer, and my mind...but I found them all. I found my way, I found my blazer, and I found out that it was lunchtime, I'm so awesome!"

"Haha yeah sure you are"

English class was...well, we had a substitute, and we sat at the same table, its easy to guess how to conversation goes.

"Okay so check this. I know English and Chinese, I took a year of Japanese, I'm now taking French and German, and I want to learn Korean and Russian."

India did this face -> O_O

we joked, we messed around, we went crazy and silly.

"By the way, just curious...do you guys like Twilight?"

"No. I want to buy it so I can BURN it."

"Haha same!"

It begins.

I am going to spend the last day of my holiday in a useful manner...

...by going through wiki and seeing how many PDs I have.

I'm doing humanity a favour here; now you know how to act around me.





"Schizotypal personality disorder, or simply schizotypal disorder, is a personality disorder that is characterized by a need for social isolation, odd behavior and thinking, and often unconventional beliefs.

A pervasive pattern of social and interpersonal deficits marked by acute discomfort with, and reduced capacity for, close relationships as well as by cognitive or perceptual distortions and eccentricities of behavior, beginning by early adulthood (in persons older than aged eighteen years) and present in a variety of contexts, as indicated by five (or more) of the following:

1. Ideas of reference (excluding delusions of reference)

2. Odd beliefs or magical thinking that influences behavior and is inconsistent with subcultural norms (e.g., superstitiousness, bizarre fantasies or preoccupations)

3. Unusual perceptual experiences, including bodily illusions

4. Odd thinking and speech (e.g., vague, circumstantial, metaphorical, overelaborate, or stereotyped)

5. Suspiciousness or paranoid ideation

6. Inappropriate or constricted affect

7. Behavior or appearance that is odd, eccentric, or peculiar

8. Lack of close friends or confidants other than first-degree relatives (ha, not even first degree relatives...)

9. Social anxiety that tends to be associated with paranoid fears rather than negative judgments about self.

- It is characterized as:

A disorder characterized by eccentric behaviour and anomalies of thinking and affect which resemble those seen in schizophrenia, though no definite and characteristic schizophrenic anomalies have occurred at any stage. There is no dominant or typical disturbance, but any of the following may be present:

1. inappropriate or constricted affect (the individual appears cold and aloof);

2. behaviour or appearance that is odd, eccentric, or peculiar;

3. poor rapport with others and a tendency to social withdrawal;

4. odd beliefs or magical thinking, influencing behaviour and inconsistent with subcultural norms;(MAGICAL THINKING HELLZ YEAH. did I tell you I was a unicorn in my past life?)

5. suspiciousness or paranoid ideas;

6. obsessive ruminations without inner resistance, often with dysmorphophobic, sexual or aggressive contents;

7. unusual perceptual experiences including somatosensory (bodily) or other illusions, depersonalization or derealization;

8. vague, circumstantial, metaphorical, overelaborate, or stereotyped thinking, manifested by odd speech or in other ways, without gross incoherence;

9. occasional transient quasi-psychotic episodes with intense illusions, auditory or other hallucinations, and delusion-like ideas, usually occurring without external provocation.



- Histrionic Personality Disorder

". Associated features may include egocentrism, self-indulgence, continuous longing for appreciation, feelings that are easily hurt, and persistent manipulative behaviour to achieve their own needs."

- Narcissistic Personality Disorder

* unprincipled narcissist - including antisocial features. A charlatan - is a fraudulent, exploitative, deceptive and unscrupulous individual.

* amorous narcissist - including histrionic features. The Don Juan or Casanova of our times - is erotic, exhibitionist.

- Antisocial Personality Disorder

Antisocial personality disorder (ASPD or APD) is defined by the American Psychiatric Association's Diagnostic and Statistical Manual as "...a pervasive pattern of disregard for, and violation of, the rights of others that begins in childhood or early adolescence and continues into adulthood."[1]
Symptoms

Characteristics of people with antisocial personality disorder may include:[3]

* Persistent lying or stealing

* Superficial charm[4][5]

* Apparent lack of remorse[4] or empathy; inability to care about hurting others

* Inability to keep jobs or stay in school[4]

* Impulsivity and/or recklessness[4]

* Lack of realistic, long-term goals — an inability or persistent failure to develop and execute long-term plans and goals

* Inability to make or keep friends, or maintain relationships such as marriage

* Poor behavioral controls — expressions of irritability, annoyance, impatience, threats,
aggression, and verbal abuse; inadequate control of anger and temper

* Narcissism, elevated self-appraisal or a sense of extreme entitlement

* A persistent agitated or depressed feeling (dysphoria)

* A history of childhood conduct disorder

* Recurring difficulties with the law

* Tendency to violate the boundaries and rights of others

* Substance abuse

* Aggressive, often violent behavior; prone to getting involved in fights

* Inability to tolerate boredom

* Disregard for the safety of self or others

* Persistent attitude of irresponsibility and disregard for social rules, obligations, and norms

* Difficulties with authority figures [6]

A) There is a pervasive pattern of disregard for and the rights of others occurring since the age of 15, as indicated by three (or more) of the following:

1. failure to conform to social norms with respect to lawful behaviors as indicated by repeatedly performing acts that are grounds for arrest;

2. deceitfulness, as indicated by repeatedly lying, use of aliases, or conning others for personal profit or pleasure;

3. impulsivity or failure to plan ahead;

4. irritability and aggressiveness, as indicated by repeated physical fights or assaults;

5. reckless disregard for safety of self or others;

6. consistent irresponsibility, as indicated by repeated failure to sustain consistent work behavior or honor financial obligations;

7. lack of remorse, as indicated by being indifferent to or rationalizing having hurt, mistreated, or stolen from another.

It is characterized by at least 3 of the following:

1. Callous unconcern for the feelings of others and lack of the capacity for empathy.

2. Gross and persistent attitude of irresponsibility and disregard for social norms, rules, and obligations.

3. Incapacity to maintain enduring relationships.

4. Very low tolerance to frustration and a low threshold for discharge of aggression, including violence.

5. Incapacity to experience guilt and to profit from experience, particularly punishment.

6. Markedly prone to blame others or to offer plausible rationalizations for the behavior bringing the subject into conflict.

7. Persistent irritability.


[edit] Millon's subtypes

Theodore Millon identified five subtypes of antisocial [12][13]. Any individual antisocial may exhibit none, one or more than one of the following:

* covetous antisocial - variant of the pure pattern where individuals feel that life has not given them their due.

* reputation-defending antisocial - including narcissistic features

* risk-taking antisocial - including histrionic features

* nomadic antisocial - including schizoid, avoidant features

* malevolent antisocial - including sadistic, paranoid features.


- Sadistic Personality Disorder

A) A pervasive pattern of cruel, demeaning, and aggressive behavior, beginning by early adulthood, as indicated by the repeated occurrence of at least four of the following:

1. has used physical cruelty or violence for the purpose of establishing dominance in a relationship (not merely to achieve some noninterpersonal goal, such as striking someone in order to rob him/her).

2. Humiliates or demeans people in the presence of others.

3. has treated or disciplined someone under his/her control unusually harshly.

4. is amused by, or takes pleasure in, the psychological or physical suffering of others (including animals).

5. has lied for the purpose of harming or inflicting pain on others (not merely to achieve some other goal).

6. gets other people to do what he/she wants by frightening them (through intimidation or even terror).

7. restricts the autonomy of people with whom he or she has a close relationship, e.g., will not let spouse leave the house unaccompanied or permit teenage daughter to attend social functions.

8. is fascinated by violence, weapons, injury, or torture.









this article really makes me feel good about myself, it does ~

on another note, tomorrow is school. i blame my lack of updates for the fact that its holidays...hopefully all that will change when I enter Welly Girls'. I mean, for the next five years I shall be visiting the Planet of the Virgin Marys, THAT's gotta be interesting right?

Till then, ta ta! I'll be back :3